Who are you to judge the life I live?

I am not perfect and I don't have to be.

Before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.

-- Bob Marley

Hi, I'm Kim.

I'm 17 years old and I live in the Philippines.

Most of my friends say that I'm such a lucky girl, I'm cute, nice and I'm the kind of girl that always smile.

BUT THEY'RE WRONG.

I HAVE DEPRESSION. 

ANXIETY.

Every second, every minute, every hour of everyday. I'm depressed.

It gets to the point where I always think of committing suicide.

Why? Becase I'm..

Physically  Tired.

Emotionally exhausted.

Mentally drained.

And

Spiritually dead.

 

having this account on aff is something important to me.  I would really want to find someone who can understand me, who can care for me, who can comfoft me, not because they pity me, but because they love me and care about me. Cause in my world? No one, did. I have tons of friends who laugh, have fun, and cry with me but when this sickness attacks, no one's there for me. SELF CUTTING OR SELFHARMING.  That'sthe only thing that keeps me going. It's addictive. It can ease the pain your feeling. I wanna die, but at the same time I don't. Life is so cruel and confusing. I really wish I would disappear.

-- KIM.