"Without a doubt I know you're going to regret this later." Were the words I told my first love on the swings at a local park near our high school as she continued to walk away.   "Take care, Gong Tae Kwang." And just like that her voice evaporated away along with her presence.  

She said she couldn’t look and feel like I wanted. She apologised and I knew it. It’s not like I was clueless about her feelings for Yi An, but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt. It doesn’t mean my heart didn’t break when she looked me with those apologetic eyes. Yet I accepted it. Now she’s back and I realise I don’t care if her feelings aren’t mutual, I’m just so damn happy she’s back. I just need her in my life, no matter how.