Get to know me through deep questions:

1. What do you think about dreams?

I think that they reflect how you are feeling both mentally and physically. I also believe in dream interpretation.

2. How well do you do around blood? Does it make you squirmy?

Blood makes me hot. I wouldn't mind playing with it. It's a bit odd, really. It doesn't make me squirm, it's fascinating to me. It sounnds like I have a blood kink, what am I doing.

3. What are some things that can almost always make your day better? Do you find yourself having a lot of bad days, or mostly good days?

Eh. Music, my best friend, cigarettes, coffee/tea/soda/juice, any kind of food, etc. I mostly have bad days, but it's just the way it is.

4. What do you think it means to be in love?

Honestly, I think that love is a branch-off of happiness. Because when you are in love, you're supposed to feel fleeting happiness and smile endlessly (as depicted in the media).

5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week and explain.

Incubus - Pardon Me; I don't want to explain at this moment, it's a bit too personal for me.

6. How would you describe the city you live in? How's your neighbourhood?

The city I live in is a very busy but tranquil place. My neighbourhood is alright, there's vandalism every now and then but that's all.

7. How would you describe your clothing style? Is there a specific reason you dress the way you do?

Hm. I dress between casual and work casual. In all honesty, I dress this way (casual) because I am straight up lazy or I do not care. As for work casual, I like being taken seriously.

8. What bugs you about your generation? What do you like most about your generation?

Gay marriage; it is ridiculous that there are people who are against others getting married just because of the fact that it wasn't "in the bible" and "it's a sin against god." It's f-cking ridiculous; people get married to spend the rest of their life together with their partner and it pissed me off so much. When I heard that gay couples went to and moved to other states to get married, I was pushed over the edge, 

9. What are you attracted to most in the same/opposite ? Are you more for looks, or personality? What are you lease attracted to?

Same ; Thighs for some apparent reason, as well as cheekbones, plus personality. Opposite ; Nothing in particular, but a good personality is nice. I am more attracted to personality versus looks, but hey if you look decent and have a killer personality, let's date. I am least attracted to 'girly girls' and very snobby women. I have nothing against men, unless they are stright up douchebags.

10. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

I see myself owning a bar, tea house, coffee house, and a restaurant.

11. Do you feel protective ovver someone?

Yes, my best friend. She is so useless when it comes to standing up to people. She always has her head down and she's told me that if she were in an abusive relationship that she'd take the hits because she "probably deserved them." I sometimes have to act like her boyfriend to get creeps to back off.

12. If you could trade places with anyone for one week, who would it be and why?

No one in particular, everyone's got that one fatal flaw.

13. Where do you see your best friend in 10 years?

Owning those businesses that I listed above, with me.

14. What would be the hardest and most fearful thing you would have to face in your lifetime? Why does this scare you so much?

I'm not quite sure, but maybe college? I am very scared and anxious about the future, seeing as I am going to community college. It scares me so much that sometimes I won't sleep or eat for days as well as not do my coursework. I'm scared because anything could happen and I know I don't have much of a grasp on what's going to happen, but I really want to.

15. What do you honestly think about your looks? Do they cross your mind much?

Oh, here we go. No one better ask for a picture, but here's the breakdown. I hate my thighs so damn much, they're so disgusting. I hate when I'm walking because people always stare when I wear skirts or shorts; I have a skin disease (minor) that causes dark bumps or rise on my skin. (It's called Keratosis Pilaris). I hate my upper arms because I haven't been working out lately and it's flab, ugly flab. My neck, good gOD, I have lines on my neck from when I was younger and apparently there used to be fat there. *shudders* My torso is awful too, I have a flat stomach, I do, but my ribcage sticks out and it makes me very self conscious, because it looks ugly.

16. What's your biggest per peeve? Why?

My people pronounce and spell my name wrong. IT'S REALLY NOT THAT HARD.

17. Do you believe in social classes?

Yes, they keep the system going.

18. If you could be anywhere in the world, but you had to be there for a certain cause, where would you be and why?

I don't know. I'm not in on any special causes.

19. Do you think it's better to have a few close best friends or to have a lot of acquaintances? Which do you have?

I think it's better to have a few close friends because acquaintances will always be just that. Best friends involve a lot of effort and such. I only have one best friend and several acquaintances, so I have the best of both worlds, I suppose.

20. How was your school life been throughout the years?

Hm. In Kindergarten, I met my 'best friend' and we remained friends until the second year of high school. In First grade, I was starting to get bullied but I didn't mind because I paid no mind. Skip over to Fourth grade and I met another friend, she was psycho. I had not talked to her for one class and she destroyed my third eldest sister's bag (we had matching bags). My second sister and I ran to her and I kind of never talked to her again, as she had moved schools, THANK GOD. *Through grades Fourth and Sixth, I guess the bullying really affected me??? Seventh and Eigth were peaceful, no bullying. Seventh grade was when I met Effy, my best friend right now. Moving onto Freshman year of High School,  I failed a lot of classes. Sophomore year of HS, nothing special happened. *In Junior year of HS, I found an old binder from Sixth grade with my writing all over it; saying I was ugly and etc, it was a lot of self-loathing. And now, it's pretty sh*tty.

21. Do you ever really learn from your mistakes?

Yes, you have to mess up to get things right. It's just like dancing, do it once you will most likely fail but you will gradually get better, bit by bit; as well as singing.

22. What's the best thing about your age? What's the worst?

Best thing? Maybe all of the experiments. Worst? All the experiments, lol. Plus the temptations.

23. Do you care about people living in the third world (countries)? Should more people care and do things like donate to charities, etc?

Honestly, no. It does not concern me. I suppose people should and I would if I had a way to, but I flat out do not care. It makes me sad every now and then, but that's really it.

24. What do you think is the most backwards thing of today's society? In your view, how could this be changed?

Double standards and views on uality. It could change if society were a little more open to equality. 

25. Are you more social or independent? Why do you think that is?

Both. I can and will be social only if I need to be, besides that, no. I am and can be independent, but it's boring every now and thenn. Why? I was taught to be both. Being social gets you things and to places. Being independent is a backup.

26. Talk about a moment where you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?

No. I will not.

27. Do you get jealous of your friends easily? If you do, how come?

Yes, my best friend, Effy knows this first hand. I don't get directly angry but I get jealous when I see one of my friends with others. In my mind, I own them; my dominance is annoying. I've called a lot of people 'it'/'you'/'mine', on accident. I also tend to sling my arm around my friends' shoulders, in a possessive way. How come? Because I do techinically own them and I am not very keen on sharing my toys, yeah? 

28. Do you tell it how it is, or keep your thoughts to yourself? Which do you think is best?

I do both, in different situations. With Effy, I will tell her the flat out truth. With others I have to see which will hurt less, seeing as I don't know them as well, common sense.

29. Do you keep a personal journal? What sort of stuff do you put in it? Do you care if other see it?

Yes and no. I used to, but I lost it. I uused to put my thoughts in it. I wouldn't want others to see it, but if they did I wouldn't go beserk.

30. Do you think when you work hard for something you really want, that the reward is worh all your harrd work? Or is it better to just get what you want, when you want it?

I'm inbetween. It really depends on what I'm working for. I really do believe that it's better to get what I want, when I want because as a human I want instant gratification.