I saw the light fade from the sky,

on the wind I heard I sigh, 

as the snowflakes cover my fallen brothers,

I will say this last goodbye. 

Hello everyone! 

It's been a while and at the moment I just want to talk about how I am feeling at the moment. 

I don't know how it's in ur country, but in mine, we have someting like exams at the moment. So anyway, you know, this can 

be much pressure. Especially if you aren't that good in school.

So, I feel all these feelings are taking me again. I'm thinking about suicide everday for a a long time now. I'm a failure, you see, I won't make 

this grade. I will be a disappointment to my parents that expected so much from me and my futur. 

I'm not strong enough for fighting, I'm not strong enough for surviving in a new school. Gawd, I'm not even strong enough to survive this whole here.

All this pressure, all this expectations, seriously, I'm not able to deal with them anymore. I just can't. 

I have been on this point of my life before, but this time it's different. I clearly know that I won't make it this time. And I don't have the power left to try it. 

You know, I have no reason to go on with my life anymore. You see, when my parents find about how I'm doing at the school right now, they won't want to see me anymore. Though, the only important thing to them is having perfect children, for their perfect little familiy. 

Don't worry about me killing myself. I'm too scared to do so. Maybe, when the grade is finally over (and I'm doomed anyway.) and it's clear that I'll have to leave the school, I'll be brave enough. To me suicide isn't cowardly, it's a battle and well, if you commit suicide, you're losing this battle. 

I don't know why I'm writing all these things here. Really, I don't. Maybe, just because I have no one to talk to and I just needed to say these few things. 

I really hope I didn't bother you or anything like that~

Like everytime, sorry for my bad English, you know it isn't my motherlanguage. 

Have a good time!~

xoxo

~xxCorpseBridexx