Annyeong!!

It feels good to write again..

Today, I will share you idk something like testimony maybe?

Since almost no one on this site know me, I feel more comfortable to tell you guys...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrPAZbD6fG0

I was watching 49 Days.. It was already late about 2 am.. I laid on my bed tried to get some sleep..

Then I remembered I haven't do night pray lately..

I realize, each day, I'm getting away from God..

I pray everyday..

I read bible eveyday..

But I just feel distance from HIM..

I feel like praying, read bible, go to church, is just like doing my routine..

It's not meaningful anymore..

That night, I prayed..

At first, I didn't know what to say to HIM..

I closed my eyes..

Tried to think of HIM..

HIS blessing..

HIS kindness..

Suddenly I cried..

There are TOO MUCH blessing that HE gives to me..

I asked HIM, why he's so nice to me? 

I told HIM that I don't deserve this..

I commit SINS everyday..

LIES..

HATRED..

HIPOCRISY..

SELFISHNESS..

COCKINESS..

I HURT HIM SO MANY TIMES..

I told HIM, there are so MANY people out there who is BETTER from me but still they live in suffer..

I have a lovely MOM..

I can EAT 3 times a day..

I have MATERIAL things..

I have great FAMILY..

I have PLACE to stay..

I have great FRIENDS..

I can afford to enter SCHOOL..

Who am I that deserve HIS LOVE?

I'm not the type who cries easily but that night..

That night.. I cried really hard..

I begged HIM for forgiveness..

I want to CHANGE..

I want to be a BETTER person..

I asked HIM to HELP me..

I asked HIM to sent me HOLY SPIRIT to GUIDE me trough this all..

After confess my sins to HIM, I feel so RELIEVED..

My previous blog post told about how crappy my life is.. But then I realized.. I have beautiful life that GOD gives to me..

Back then, I had narrow thought.. I complained complained complained how my life is.. 

Now, I believe that GOD had prepared GREAT plan for me and my future.. 

THANKS LORD..

and by the way GOD BLESS YOU ALL whoever read this ;)