I'm going crazy! Literally! I'm the kind of person whose thoughts are either one-tracked or in a jumbled mix depending on the subject. Since I took an interest in writing again thanks to fanfics, I have been assaulted with ideas from all sides. 

I like writing fanfics because you already have something to work with and dont necessarily have to start from scratch or build your plot or characters from the ground up. 

As much as i love them writing fanfics is becoming a serious pain in the . I've got just too many ideas I think would make decent stories and I just dont know how to work with them. I do realise that the more stories I have up, the longer the delay in updates. You can't pick one only and focus on it with regular updates, it doesnt seem fair (at least to me anyways). Thats why I try to update my fics in turn so that none get neglected but even then, I'll be working on an update and suddenly an idea pops, it could be an idea for a future update on the same fic or another fic or for an entirely different and new story. Its driving me crazy! Just yesterday I came up with 2 new stories. 

How do I cope with it or am I just over stressing unnecessarily. 

I wish I could update faster so I can get on with it, you know, but I take so long now to update that who knows how long i'll take if I have more fics up. It doesnt help that I dont have a working laptop, so typing takes ages. My tab malfunctioned recently and I'm too broke to fix it, so the bluetooth keyboard that came with it is completely useless as I've not figured out how to connect it to my phone. I'm not even sure its possible. Typing on my phone is really tedious and apparently gives me the image of a frivolous idle woman, as my boss, collegues, friends and family have been complaining recently. 

As none of them are enthusiastic about kpop, they just see it as a waste of time, only few friends have actually bothered to read and encourage me on the stories. In the kind of society i live in most people would and do consider my stories (especially the ty ones) as scandalous and shocking, (smh right?) I cant even justify all the time I spend tapping away at my phone. 

An idle african woman is like a travesty and I cannot count how many times I've been berated for being on my phone. Sometimes I think I'm in danger of getting fired for it.  

I guess I'm a little frustrated. Sometimes I wish I never started writing again and other times I'm really thankful I did. 

Typically, I've lost my train of thought.  Dunno what I wanted to say originally. But i need some advice if i want to remain sane. 

How do I work with all these ideas. Do I use them, build an update or a story around them and then wait for the appropriate time to post them or should I just let them go and lose potentially awesome materials. Do I go: to hell with it and post each of them and update them whenever and however, please bear in mind I have like 20 potential stories, about 5 of them with well defined plots and even parts of chapters already written (I couldn't resist). 

I guess I dunno what to do and I just wanna vent. Lol. Dont mind me.