Today is one of those days when i feel i'm a horrible person...

I have the most loving and caring boyfriend, i have more than loving grandparents that make sure i'm never in need.. still i'm this cold person. Truth is I don't tend to them enough; i don't deserve them.

I don't understand why i am the way i am. I know i love them, i do! But i keep retracting myself to a corner, to this empty little space where it's just me.. it's like i don't know how to not be lonely. It's like i need it.

It doesn't make sense, i know.

And you don't have to answer; i'm just venting. But thank you for reading.

Cookiez*