The title is explained everthing, im no one.. im here not seeking for attention ,, i just want to write what i felt ,, u guys can ignore this post,, actually i just to write this post for my friend,, my friend who already called by God.. i miss her so much.. we were not too close at the first place because i just met her like 2-3 weeks ago and now she already left me, forever,,, but knowing her in this short time really makes me realize how society judge us,, we were different but we were in same boat,, spending 2-3 weeks at hospital with her is the most precious memories i ever created at that cold place.. when i first step in the hospital, i thought tm going to waste my life with medicines and needles for almost one month.. but, she came to me, asking "are u sleepy? Wanna play around?" ,, i puzzled, looking at her,, looking at her eyes, i nooded at her request.. we played, we chatted, we laughed,, n one day, i heard from doctor that her time to join God is sooner than expected.. she knew that all along.. yet, she smiled, telling me "u know, im not scare to join God,, but im scare to leave my parents." That time im cried . "Dont cry. Everything has ending. So am i.. my ending is joining God's side." I was cried at time, not knowing what to answer. "U know, people always say that they know how people like us feel, yet they never been in our place. Never been feel treated with medicines all the time, never feel pain when needles penetrated into their skin.. we feel that.. we feel the pain.. all they gotta say is 'u gotta be strong'.. do they even know what strong is all about? Strong is smiling even your heart is aching.. strong is never let your loved ones see your tears, strong is laughing like no tommorow because maybe there is no tomorrow for people like us. Here, my last word for you 'be strong'.." 

Rest in peace, dear...  i will be strong for u,, watch me from heaven.. :')