I sometimes wonder if I'm too nice, or too lenient, or too forgiving. So many people crush my heart without knowing and I just have to fake that huge smile on my face but feel like crap inside. So many of them are people I love and cherish so much but they kill me everytime they call me stupid or idiot or say things like you . When I tell you 'I love you', you give me that scornful look and go 'I hate you' or 'I love me too'. My heart cracks everytime that happens. Why can't they understand that I have feelings too? This personality of mine is nice to bully I guess but I cry too. I get angry too. But I can't show it. I just smile. I just laugh and yet on the inside, I'm crying. I'm not asking you to treat me like a queen. I just want to have my feelings to be considered every once in a while. If one day I were to snap, I wonder what would happen.