Goodbye

Hey guys.

It's CupieCakesx3 here.

I hate to say it, but I think my time here is finally done. It's funny, actually, cause I remember it was only maybe.. August? Even the beginning of September, I was all like "I'll never leave AFF ahaha..what? Unfinished stories? Nooo never..." Well it's..It's finally come.

I haven't update since August. I haven't written since July. Honestly, I try. I hate that I'm going to have unfinished stories..But I will. I'm so sorry.

I'm the type to hate people who do that, but I'm a hypocrite. I just..No matter how much I try, I just can't write.

After I got a new computer, I just..I don't know I stopped. I didn't have resources for graphics, so I stopped going on the computer, and that made me stop writing.

I've, in all honesty, lost interest.

My English teacher ; she can't teach and she made me absolutely hate English. She made me hate reading, she made me hate writing. Anything to do with literature, I seriously cannot stand. Just the thought of it makes me so completely angry.

I mean.. I honestly don't know. I listen to sad songs, and it makes me want to write. But what is there to write? These days..there's really no originality left in the world. Everything has basically been done when it comes to writing sad things. I just..I'm not creative to write anymore.

I don't even..What am I even writing now? Am I trying to explain why I'm leaving? I just..I'm so messed up these days and I just..I don't know anymore. I want to write. I want to make graphics.

But graphics have become a chore for me; so I don't want to do it anymore.

And writing...theres just nothing to write.

I'm sorry. I've been gone for two months, and I just..I don't even want to write this because I don't want to face the reality that I'm stopping. I love AFF. I love it so much.

But it's my time to leave.

I can't even read fan fiction anymore, so how can I write it? I don't know. Am I even making sense right now? I'm listening to Kyungsoo's song for Cart OST and it's seriously messing me up right now so does any of this even make sense?

I don't know. All I know is that I'll miss you. I'll miss everyone. I feel bad..for doing this. I don't know. I just... I don't want to leave, but how can I stay if I have no business left here?

I'm so deeply, sincerely sorry that I'm not finishing any of my fics..Maybe one day, I'll come back and finish...but for now, I'm leaving. I mean, I'll be one sometimes to check things and stuff, and you can message me and you'll get replies.. but I won't be writing fan fiction, and I won't be making graphics, and I won't really read anymore.

I'm sorry I disappointed you all. I never wanted it to come to an end like this.

I'm sorry..but goodbye.

Goodbye, everyone.

(honestly, if you know me, things like this blow over in a few days; max a week. so i might be back to write yugyeom fan fiction because that boy makes me feel a lot of things. but right now, im sincerely saying goodbye..)

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lovelylumei #1 Nov 9, 2014 16:27:45

There are a lot of authors here wanted to leave AFF and I'm also one of those people who has stopped writing and might be leaving this site.
Please don't lose hope and keep going on. I never hated English though I know the phrase 'English is easy' isn't really true. My English isn't good, but I keep learning and I hope I could speak and write in English well in the future.
Anyhow, bye. Live your life normally and don't worry about your readers. Once they loved your writing, they'll love it forever no matter what happens.

Rogue-Renegade #2 Nov 8, 2014 11:26:34

Bye, I hope you come back. I have these feelings too sometimes, like it's just not worth til I write because I love to make people happy, but laty I feel so sad I can't even think about that. I kinda just want it to stop, but at the same time I need to finish. I hope you find your spark again, good bye!

kissme4life_99 #3 Nov 7, 2014 08:51:03

Bby ;~; i'll miss you and your writing so much omg. But! Don't feel that you're disappointing us! It's your own choice, and we all respect it ^^ never give up, okay? Don't give up in life~ i hope you feel less burdened after saying all that! Cheer up, yeah? If you ever feel the need to write again, do so! I won't say goodbye. I'll simply say see you again one day here on AFF! Also, if you ever need to talk, just message me! :3 don't bottle it all up~ i love you Lydia! <333

dopey- #4 Nov 7, 2014 07:30:48

Don't lose hope...i'll always support you...cheer up please

byacell #5 Nov 7, 2014 01:13:28

omg... cheer up! I also don't have time to write, read or making graphics anymore but still I'm here lol
just calm yourself down and relax! I'll waiting for your comeback, someday. fighting!

lifeoverdeath69 #6 Nov 6, 2014 23:57:31

T.T ...............T,,T

choimiah #7 Nov 6, 2014 20:00:08

I feel you. Sometimes, I just have this strong feeling to stop writing. It's frustrating. The inspiration just leaks out of me for no reason at all. But, you should keep making graphics. Even if it's not on AFF. I remember when you made a graphic for one of my first stories. It's still there, never coming down. Has it been a year already? Times flies. Anyway, you're still the best, lydia-unnie. I love you. I wish you all the best in the future.

-Mia ^-^

Renia_ #8 Nov 6, 2014 19:47:10

I understand what your saying an may I suggest give yourself time an when you feel the urge to write again log back onto your AFF account an write so until then stay safe an amazing an be inspired to write again in the near future I will not say goodbye I will say until then I will hear from you again soon (bows) take care of yourself honey I will miss you as well until then