Capsule No. 5: For Us.

My head feels like exploding, shattering into a million pieces.

You watch me silently.

 

My eyes feel sore and one is coloured a dark purple.

You take care of me wordlessly.

 

My heart feels like tearing itself apart, wanting to know whether this decision I made was the best for you. I don't care about myself. Only you.

You turn away, a dead silence in your eyes.

 

And I hear you cry. In my sleep.

I hear you whimpering. Telling me to never leave you.

I hear your heart beating next to mine behind my closed eyelids. 

And then I realize,

 

I can't live without you.

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Lolitops_ #1
Wow okay I have read all of your blog posts after your reply in 5 minutes and I can't explain how bad I feel. Are you okay dear? That was a stupid question. I hope you'll manage, but isn't there any other way to work anything out? It's a shame for such a love to shatter for reasons I'm not aware of but it probably won't be incredibly legitimite but really now, you two seemed to have had a connection beyond ordinary compare. It seemed almost magically perfect in it's imperfections. To be honest nothing is perfect, and you two made it sound absolutely possible for it to be perfection. But why the sudden end? I'm not sure...I won't bug on further about this. I'm sure you're still recovering. I really do wish you well. If you do face any more hardships you can always count on us, your subscribers. The ones who care enough and will listen to your sorrows, your doubts and insecurities. We might not always be there to physically comfort your, but as they say, words are more powerful that actions. 'The pen is mightier than the sword.'

Stay strong love. I don't know if I'm overly dramatic but I honestly hope for the best for you. I hope my words are somewhat comforting rather than nostalgic. Hopefully.

Take care dear...
Kokokitten #2
Oh my gosh this is breaking my heart. Try long distance? Please...
Xoxox389angel #3
You're hurting now dongsaeng but you have to think of yourself what's best for the both of you. If you can't live without her.. Then maybe try this distant thing for awhile.. You obviously don't want to hurt her.. And she's asking you to stay..
This was beautiful and if I didn't know what was going on.. I wouldn't feel this sad
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