I sometimes just want to share my thoughts... maybe this is a bad idea, but I can delete this anyway.

I'm depressed way to long and right now I feel the urge to cut so strong... I try to distract myself for 2h now tbh. But I really need it... .

Hate this. I'm 5 days clean now, which means I cutted myself the last time 5 days ago. But I did hurt myself though... well, just biting and burning. Not that big deal.

Today was such a ty day. I feel so fat and ugly, uh... at least I lost 2kg last week. Way to go. Continue to starve myself. Yay. 

Tomorrow is my girlfriends birthday (yeah I'm bi, get over it) and I have to be clean... I don't want her to see the fresh wounds again. Urgh... I hate her to be disappointed... I just hurt and disappoint everyone.

Nice post, isn't it? Will probably be deleted in 30 minutes...