For A While

I don't know why but lately things are so different and hard. I don't even know what to do anymore. Seems like everything is so messed up and I can't even do anything about it. It's like my head is ready to explode but it just won't. It hurts a lot. I can't even be all happy-go-lucky like what I used to do. Can't even fake it out because it's too noticeable sometimes. It's tiring and feels like there's a big hole in my heart that makes everything... indescribable. I can't even sleep properly, and it gets worse than before. I only sleep 2-4 hours every night. I can't even hold my tears anymore.

Everything just feels so... empty.

I cry myself to sleep.

I'm just... tired.

So I decided to take a leave. For a while. I don't know. 3 days? A week? 10 days? 2 weeks? 3? No I don't know.

I'm sorry to disappoint some of you. I'm sorry that I decided this way. I'm sorry I can't hold it anymore. It's just too much.

I'm sorry I'm not strong enough.

When I'm back, I'll be that happy-go-lucky 19 y.o girl you all ever knew again. But not now and I'm sorry.

So till we meet again.

BlackMeetsRed.

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blue_ALV #1 Oct 30, 2014 10:28:33

Dongsaeng l never know you are going through such a pain. You do not have to pretend and put up a charade for the sake of others.

If time is what you need to heal, then so be it. I will be with you no matter what decision you wish to take along with the other friends you have here.

Au revoir my ever so kind and cute Dongsaeng.

jhooooooooooope #2 Oct 30, 2014 10:17:40

Well, I think we're facing an exact problem, authornim... It just feel like everybody left me behind and no one got my back... Stay strong and cheer up, authornim! Fighting!