I hate to break this, but things have come to... idk, probably an end. 

Maybe it's just school, but I no longer have the desire to continue on where I left--all the unfinished fanfiction I've yet to put an end to. 

It was fun.

It really was.

But you don't get to see the bigger picture when you stay submerged in it for a long time. 

So I went out. 

It's just that I never came back. 

People in AFF were really wonderful and sweet that sometimes I still think twice before doing anything rash like this. Exactly what I'm doing now. 

I've made up my mind, however. 

I don't know if it's just school entirely or all the fiasco going on in the fandom that I can't deal with anymore. It's sad. I was trying to come back, been trying for a while now but maybe not enough (updating myself with 902014 but then I realized I had no feelings anymore as I was watching it [I couldn't even watch Lay's full MV thing T___T]; even when my sister told me she's watching WGM with Taemin and Naeun with EXO as guests I just...) but you know how issues keep coming in the way. I don't mean to sound like I'm just going out of the "Overdose" maze just because of these issues. It's just that there have been more important issues I have to tackle in my life. 

I'm on my third year of college and it's not getting any better. The work load, I mean. While school is fun, it's 10x busier now that I need to focus my full attention on making this work because I can never redo this just as I can never redo what I used to think before about fangirling and all that stuff--all those times I spent overloading myself with videos; downloading and sharing them with my friends and generally ignoring my responsibilities in life. Funny how my thesis paper is actually about fangirling, yet... haha.

It's just that LBR, kpop isn't how it was 6 years ago. Now you might tell me things change and that they happen for a reason, sure, but exactly these changes that I want out. I don't mean to sound like I know it all, because I don't, but there.

Wait, let me rephrase that. I'm still an enthusiast, just not so much of a fan anymore. Update me with things happening in the fandom is fine, I'm still on Twitter. 

It's just that things will never be how they were.

But setting all of those aside, I want to thank each and everyone of you who gave time in reading my pieces published on here. You were all really nice and rarely was the time I got bs from any of you, despite my writing being very subpar. I'll never forget my times in AFF just as I would never forget the people who talked to me and shared with me our common passion, even just for a while. I thank each and every commenter, upvoter, subscriber. I don't care if you skimmed through my works for you still read it and you took time, even if that time I took from you I can never give back.

This has been Ruwee/Moira/whatever you know me as. 

Nice to have met you and farewell (or see you around hahahah). 

PS. For those who are still reading or will be reading maybe it's (not) too late, if you want an ending, you may ask me for it... or not. I don't really have an actual conceptualization or the whole thing written out, but I at least have an outline. If you're interested, anyway. 

Oh, and I'm not deleting anything. Maybe except for waiting in vain for your love or setting it just for friends to see because I may or may not pass it for something I have going on that needs to be and/or queues and trainers, too.