I have never notice a crush can be this devastating and literally "crushing" before. I like you so much way too much, but I didn't want a relationship.  I don't fit a relationship.  I understand there are still blurred directions ahead of me. I need to find it. I want to dream, I want to achieve.  Therefore,  I'm not going to confess. Part of me is afraid. Afraid that it will effect your goal and mines. I will hide this admiration for as long as I can