I can't really express how sad this year has been with our idols.

But I want what is best for them no matter how sad I be or how much I cry for them.

They are human beings who have a right to make their own choices.

Sometimes being a fan I feel it's ok to cry and sometimes it's ok to hurt, we also are humans too right?

But that is ok.

LuLu you know your fans will always support you and I am glad you decided to do what is best.

Yeah I cried not even going to deny that.

SM......you are really ty and I tried to over look it but enough is enough.

I'm sorry I just have to rant and get this ball of mixed emotions out.

Sorry if I complain a little but like lay stated that even the fans must be sad and to stay strong.

As I write this I feel better.

I came to terms.

Their happiness is all that matters to me. Much love

And to everyone who is also hurting lets be strong guys and try to smile.