Hi all... Thank you for reading..

You guys must be tired of me and my excuses.. And I am sorry for that.. But I think we all know what is happening right?

1. Seungri is back to hospital again..

We all worried and sad of this situation. I am very worried and concern.. TT Poor my baby and please get well soon.

2. About GD..

Though I want to avoid saying this and keeping my mind positive this whole time but eventually I can't help but feeling this way.. I know some nyongtorian and VIPS are upset with his honeymoon trip in Japan while we all know that Ri is in the hospital. I want to understand GD. Honestly I want. He is entitled for his own life, we have no control over his life and he can do whatever he want. I read a lot of theories and what is regarding his news and taking every possibility and explanation into account. Is Jiko real? Is jiko just an act to distract fans that talked badly about Ri? Well, everything is possible. It is up to us to believe what, what not or why. I was handling everything in a good way as far as I can, but not until the Paris Women's Collection Show. Seriously WTH GD? I am not angry that Kiko is there too. (Well, maybe a bit angry, like that honeymoon trip wasn't enough.. bleh~ ). I understand he was invited bla bla bla.. But for women collection? Ok..  Maybe because he loves to wear woman cloth from time to time.. whatever.. But all I can see is GD the fashionista. Where is Bigbang album? Why is him playing around? And what about Ri? As many people said, Ri is not in that bad condition that GD has to be at his side all the time.. and that is his work. Yeah right.. He is fashionista and I don't like GD the fashionista. I like GD as Bigbang leader and a great rapper and composer. So.. All said.. I come to dislike GD.

But believe it or not.. This is not as bad as it sound. I always have up and down with Bigbang. I will recover and come to love GD again. I am sure of it. But at this moment, the feeling is taking a break. I am still loving all of his songs and whatever that related to Bigbang.. Just my love to him is taking a break. You guys know what this mean? This means, it is hard for me to write GRI fic. As my feeling to GD is taking a break, my GRI feeling is also taking a break. I am really sorry. You are not going to see me write GRI for awhile.

3. But...

Although I am taking a break on GRI, my love to Seungri never changed. In fact I love him more and more everyday. I am going to still writing "Bigbang Heart Maknae". I just can't write GRI in a way that they are romantically involved with each other at this moment.. I will be back with GRI for sure since I love them so much even if it stay as in fiction world only. Their bromance is real. I still strongly believe in them. I just feel very annoyed with GD right now and I know it's temporary. Maybe I'll love him back tomorrow. Who knows. I still truly love Bigbang as a whole and that will never change as long as Ri is there.

So.. This is all I wanna say. I am sorry to the readers who are waiting for my update. I will update eventually. I need to get out from this slump and I am trying.

Thank you for reading.

Jena.