Hello there,

In my previous blog, I was venting my anger and frustration. This blog will be more on the sentimental side.

When I was first introduced by accident to SNSD, it was the end of 2012. I didn’t get the dynamics of the group, it took me awhile to get that and it took me more time to know who is who (I am Caucasian, so it was a bit hard). At first the triplets confused me, and surprisingly Taengsic as well. My first bias was Tiffany, well she is the reason behind all of this.

I started watching online videos and got hooked; at first Jessica didn’t mean much to me, she was simply a member. I was honestly blinded by Tiffany, and then came Hello Baby with the English scenes, Intimate note, Horror movie factory with the dolphin scream, Star Golden bell with the spacing out and everything else, Star King with the magician as well as so SO SO many other interviews and tv shows. My ultimate bias then became Yoona, the wrecker, and my ultimate OTP YoonSic.

The reason I became so attached and overprotective when it comes to SNSD is the fact that between February 2013 and November 2013, I graduated from Uni and joined the jobless club, which made me go into a deep depression; my laughter was because I was watching their interviews. They were my escape from reality, my home away from home. They were my distraction from my reality. During that time, I also joined AFF and the SNSD fics here were also a major distraction (that’s why I don’t like it when authors give up on their stories).

Well during all that, Jessica grew on me, I saw her charms, her beauty, her heart mealting pout, her killer (and sadly underrated) eyesmile, and then came the y factor: y face, y body, y stare, just y everything.

I saw General Jung, the Dolphin scream, the Ice Princess, the “her own version/mild” aegyo (that’s a killer people). I saw the brutally honest Jessica. I saw all the aspects of her wonderful personality.

The way she walks is as graceful as a model. The way she stares at the camera it’s like she is commanding the camera and saying “you are mine”

Her voice is, to me, like silk. It just comes out and feels effortless.

I thought January 1^st was horrible, with Yoona’s dating (which I now fully support). But I guess I was wrong, now that this happened. I don’t know if there ever is a going back, to me she will always be a SNSD angel, y cold and chic angel.

I don’t know how SNSD will manage without her; she was a main vocalist, with her voice shining in all the songs.

How will I be able to listen to Gee, when her part “My Angel & My Girls My Sunshine” is said by someone else?

How will I be able to listen to The Boys, when the iest “GG” in the history of all GGs is said by someone else?

How will I be able to listen to My J, when during the performance of the song, all the girls point towards Jessica when they say “Saranghae yo My J, naye My J”?

How will I be able to listen to Lazy Girl, when she is the laziest girl we know and adore?

What about the remaining songs such as Complete and Indestructible, how will I be able to listen to those songs, when I know that even if the bond is there, the Agency can get rid of you like you were nothing?

What about the rest, her voice shines and is so unique, you will know that Jessica is there, even when 3 or even all the girls are singing at the same time.

Jessica is (yes the present) a lead vocal, the one with the longest training, the fashionista among the girls.

I want to say

Thank you for all the memories,

Thank you for all the laughs you gave me,

Thank you for making “the pout” a part of my daily life,

Thank you for being a distraction during my toughest times

Thank you for being part of my OTP, you will always be a part of my OTP though

Thank you for being you, Jessica Jung Sooyeon

I want to say to all the Sones, I know that this is hard. But think about it this way, even though she is no longer a member of SNSD, she still has her second dream that she will pursue whole heartedly. Don’t give up Sones and instead of grieving support Jessica and support the remaining girls.

I want to say to all the authors, giving up on their stories and fics, you guys will get through this. Don’t stop writing, don’t give up on that. It will be hard to find the inspiration, but stay strong.

Maybe this is happening for the best; maybe this might be the beginning of the end. But I guess I should prepare myself for all the possible scenarios.

Jessica is a fighter, a woman made of steel. She has been through a lot and yet she is still standing tall and proud. I am not really worried about her.

Thank you Jessica Jung Sooyeon, SNSD’s chic warm hearted ice princess. Thank you for everything.

I love you and I will always do, no matter what happens in the future, I will be following and supporting you and the rest of the girls. You will always be a reason for my smiles and laughter.

#StayStrongSNSD #StayStrongJessica #StayStrongSones#BelieveinSoShiBond #BelieveinJessica

See you around AFF