as know as the day SM made Jessica leave the group but not the company (and why only the group). 

you know the first thing is, i dont expect it to be Jessica. i mean she's kin of quiet all this time with all the dating news she denying and all those stuffs. and no i dont expect anyone from girls generation would be leaving, maybe it's me who's stupid enough that there would always be 'forever' to them (that naive kind of thing). but let's be honest, are you expecting this to happen first in the morning? or night or wherever you're from?. and the thing that irked me the most is that SM saying that the other 8 is also agree to kicked her out. now just imagine how could Seohyun and Yoona do that. like really, how? could you? if you could then there's something wrong with you or either you don't understand. 8 of them turning their back on jessica is the last thing i would believe. because i dont (what the that's not possible). 

call me naive again and i don't even care because i still have this tiny litte faith in jessica. the thing that make it even more sad that she didn't want to leave, she wants to stay but she can't choose between blanc and snsd. you called me biased or whatever but i think i can understand her. blanc is like her baby and snsd is her life. say that she is a mom and though i know she doesn't really like kids but she still a mom which make her sacrifice her life. like most mother do. i dont know what happen and how ugly this situation in their real life but you know maybe this is it. there will be no more 9, forever and all those crap. like, honestly that's to see the group i cherish the most crumbling like this. the rest are still there but somehow i don't feel like it's the same again. it hurts, devastating. and i dont want to imagine how the girls feeling right now. it would be too ugly.

how aout the marriage next year....? i dont know... damn it to lose her like this. i wanted them to end up beautifuly or at least less hurting. they're not end (yet) i know but still. and i foolishly believe that SM would make them end up smothly. that's just stupid because look at now. today. what day is it? i dont want to wake up from yesterday. it was so peaceful and everything seems like on its place. it's like heaven and hell, yesterday and now. like we're stepping on the road to hell without us noticing. man, so so . i feel horible, i dont even care with the others opinions and comments and those stupid things. please just let jessica live a happy life then. let's end her misery, make her less hurt or burdening. doesn't she deserve something happier than this? she got kicked and all those s? i mean i know it to see your bias on the altar wering dress with some rich guy or whatever. i have no hard feelings about their relationship anyway since it's just too obvious. so i think i'm just gonna let it slide... Jessica the girl of my life marrying someone. at least she would be happy.

and seriously, with all this ed up crap i hope SM wont do the same exact ing thing later with the other 8. they deal with manything alr. no need to put some ed up crap anymore. how i hope i could just buy SM and let them make their dreams come true.

and BOO!! i wont get over this s anything soon. deal with it!