30/9/14 - Major heartbreak

As you all might know, SM confirmed that Jessica is forced/kicked out of SNSD. It really saddened me to the point that I was crying non-stop today. I guess no one really knows how much this is affecting me. As a Jessica (and Taeyeon) biased fan, it's a huge blow, obviously even bigger than the dating news. SNSD is never ever complete without 9 of them together. Imagine not being able to see your bias performing again with the group. The emptiness you would feel when her lines, her parts, being sung by the other members. Imagine being forced out of a group just because you want to sell sunglasses. Imagine being kicked out of a group right after releasing songs that has the title of 'Indestructible' and 'DIVINE'. It will never be the same again. It's funny how I've grown so attached towards SNSD even though they won't even realize my existance. I've only seen them twice in concerts as OT9. I'll hate this day forever. 

Jessica's gone.. I would never ever acknowledge OT8 because it feels so wrong. Even my fingers wanted to type OT9 by itself. I thought we could at least secure 3 more years with SNSD as 9 since the news reported that they all renewed their contracts. Thank you Jessica, for all your commitments throughout these 14 years as a lovable member of SNSD and a trainee. You've worked so hard and you're a strong girl. You'll forever be my angel and we'll forever be by your side <3 Nothing lasts forever but my heart will forever be with you <3

I've actually typed out a chapter for my fics and intended to post it up today, guess it isn't really the right time. I'm sorry if you guys have to wait a while more but this is really heartbreaking and I just kept crying today. I really feel like dying. Guess we won't see TaengSic moments again.. Forever. 

On the other hand, I hope the other girls are doing well and they will be together till the end~ Jigeumeun, Apeurodo, Yongwonhi, SNSD! 

"We are always one," "We are indestructible, unbreakable," "You make my life complete.."