I spend hours at a time doing things trying to get my mind off you, Facebook, reading, flirting with other people! But nothing can make up for the fact that you're not here and I'm not in your arms. There seems to be this frustration that I have with you; I have the need to be with you every waking moment of my life. The thought of me showing this to you and having you scoff it off, it makes tear well up! Honestly I don't know what I would do if you weren't part of my life, you've been a rock when the rest of the ground was pebbles, a mountain when everyone else was hills, and him when everyone else was a jerk. I hate the fact that for other people to crack a smile for me they have to say paragraphs, but for you all you have to do is look at me. Look at me and my life feels changed, feels like if it ended right then I would be ok because you had just acknowledged my existence just for that moment. You send one word texts like haha, sure, yeah, cool! That frustrates the crap out of me! I want to pour my heart out to you but how can I when you're like this?