Long Time No See , Guys 

HELLO 

Sorry for the long absence

I experienced so much sadness this past days

First of all , About the Happenings to LADIES CODE

Even though i'm not a fan of LADIES CODE

As a KPOPPER , I also feel pain and sadness

I feel sad for EUNB also for LADIES CODE

It's so sad for us ... KPOPPERS 

I can't even update because of the sadness

But I'll Try ....

And SECOND . My FRIEND

Can you give me some advice on what will I do ?

I had this friend of mine who I really want to be with . She's a girl too . She's with me since Grade 7 until now Grade 9 . But As Time passes by , Her attitude changed

The way she talks to me

The way she treated me

The way she acts beside me

And also , It looks like that she doesn't want anyone to go near me

I thought she wanted me to stay only by her side

I'm so CONFUSED !!!

She was a serious and always angry person when I first met her , She's easy to be provoke 

But when we become close , She changed and become a Not so easy to be provoke person

She can take JOKES . She smiles too and even bond with us ....

And then.... When we become GRADE 9 (NOW) 

A New Transferee Boy came to our section and become our classmate

I Don't Know Why ...

She started being so sensitive about her look.

About her HAIR if it's messy 

She always like that

I remembered one time ,After our flag ceremony

One of my classmate asked to be with me that time but my friend just looked at me and to that classmate and then she never talk and just go upstairs by her own

And also , She don't want me to disagree to her decisions .

She wanted me to eat what she wants me to eat 

I don't like it ... it's over 

REALLY REALLY OVER ...

And the time when she asked me to choose between her or my four other friends

it really hits me ...

I become angry at her that time ....

She asked me 

"What will you choose ? Them or Me ? They are FOUR and I'm only one . If you choose them , i will lose"

I have my own mind , my own body , my own life , my own decisions...

I can do what i want...

I can't tell her...

i don't know what to do 

All i can do is to obey her decisions 

Her decision of choosing food , choosing places to go , and other things .

She said that when I'm having misunderstandings to others , I fastly apologize but when I'm having misunderstanding with her , I just decided to fight with her ...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW...

I'M SO CONFUSED

It feels like i wanted SPACE

I wanted time to think about EVERYTHING

About what I really want

About what's happening on me

Please...give me some advice....

THANK YOU SO MUCH

HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU

I DON'T WANT TO HURT HER FEELINGS

I KNEW THAT IF I TELL HER THAT I WANTED SPACE AND I WANTED TO COME WITH OTHERS RIGHT NOW , SHE WILL BECOME SAD BUT I REALLY NEED TIME TO THINK .... I WANTED FREEDOM . I WANTED TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING HAPPENING TO ME ....

SHE SHOW KINDNESS TO ME BUT SOMETIMES , SHE ABUSED MY KINDNESS TO HER .... 

WHEN I WAS GRADE 7 , BEFORE I MET HER ... I WAS A SHY , SERIOUS AND I NEVER BOND WITH OTHERS BUT WHEN I MET HER AND OTHER CLASSMATES , I LEARNED HOW TO SMILE AND HOW TO HAVE FUN ...I ALREADY HAVE SO MUCH FRIENDS NOW . I DON'T KNOW...

BUT I MISSED THE OLD ME 

I MISSED THE SERIOUS , FOREVER ALONE , SAD , NOT FRIENDLY ATTITUDE OF MINE...

I'M SO CURIOUS ABOUT EVERYTHING....