We all know that living in this world is just temporary,

 No one is permanent, no one is consistent,

no one is everlasting, and there’s no such thing as forever.

 

Growing up without a real mother beside you was the most painful thing,

growing up around your close friends who had such a wonderful mother

 was another kind of pain to endure,

but those people who are left behind are blessed.

 

Being left by the most important person you know, could shattered your whole being,

I thought all the mother in this world would do everything for the sake of her family,

I thought mothers can’t stand seeing her child’s cry.

I thought mothers are the strongest person that exists, but then

One day, all that thoughts had vanished when she left.

 

Sometimes the person who we have thought that would fight for us, love us,

and cherish us until the very last breath, is the same person that could ruin us,

emotionally, physically and mentally. 

 Just like me, my heart crumpled into pieces when my mother left us.

I never thought that a kid with a fragile heart could take this kind of pain,

I never thought I could surpass that pain when I was a kid.

The stinging pain in my heart is beyond explanation.

 

When she left, I tried to forget the pain she caused me,

But in every attempt that I’ve made to forget her was futile.

Up until now, the pain is still so fresh,

 The wound in my heart is not yet healed.

 

I grew up without her,

I grew up with hatred formed in my heart,

I grew up resenting her

I grew up longing for her presence,

 and I grew up learning that the things in this world are limited and expensive.

Having to feel this kind of bitterness in me is inevitable.

 

I have been wondering this in my entire existence,

How could a mother abandoned her family?

How could a mother bore to see her child’s in pain?

When she’s the one, who gave birth and introduced the world to me,

If not for her I wouldn’t be in this world,

Hence, the things she has done made me a stronger person than I am.

I’ve come to accept this reality.

Do not give up in life though everything’s not in the right place.