Have you ever had those moments when you look back at times where you regret something but only to realize that you didn't regret it because it might have changed everything for the better?

an example of that is of me never telling my best friend I liked him all throughout high school. For some reason his girlfriend logged in on his account or possibly made him unfollow me or unfriend me on all social medias we were friends with. 

At that point I gave up on him but still held on to my feelings. So I don't get why she had him do that. Was she that insecure that I would take her boyfriend away? We've only been friends for the four years of high school yet many people think we've known each other for the longest time.

Thanks to her doing that, I lost all contact with one of dearest friends that I never want to lose. So I spoke up to her.

But that only made things worse. And I practically lost him all together. And it was all my fault. And I regretted it. But only for a while.

I still think of him to be honest. But I guess it worked out for the best. I never had the courage to tell him so I never had a chance to begin with. 

I don't want to be someone special to him but I would love to still be friends with him.