So if you keep up with my blog posts or with my stories, you would know that I'm currently completing the last year of my high schooling life. 
And The week coming is 'Hell Week' for my timetable. I have 4 SACs - (English,Methods (Maths), Biology & Chemistry). And on top of that, I have an Unit 4 Area of Study Test on the same day as two of my exams. Honestly, it's becoming too much. 

There's open days for universities that I have to attend to now. I just don't have the time to do anything anymore, My mum doesn't understnad how much stress I'm under now. My parents expect me to do exceptionally well but they don't understand the stress they put me under. I get a constant amount of stress and pressure from my teachers and peers (I won't call them friends because most of them are two faced asses) who expect me to score well. 

That's only the first of hell week. 

My so called best friend now won't talk to me and I have no reason why. From my histroy, I push people away from me. I don't let people close but this time it wasn't me. I didn't do anything, I attempt to talk to him now but he doesn't even respond to me. And honestly, after all I've gone through and after all I've told him about my past, he still can go about and treat me like this? I just don't get it. 

And then there is open day. There is one that I'm supposed to go to tomorrow. But my friend cancelled on me today and that just literally destroyed my weekend. Don't tell me you 'texted' me when you didn't. She claimed to have texted me but she didn't. She can't use the excuse that she doesn't have my number because she does, I've texted her before and she responded to it before and even bought it up when we talked in person. I hate going to places by myself. Honestly, if she didn't want to go, she could have just said it and not lied. She was the one who bought it up with me after all. 

And there is another lot of friends. Somehow they always just 'forget' to invite me to anything and everything they do. It's like, I kinda bought them together and now they've ditched me and ran away because I am no longer of nay importance. 

I honestly cannot wait until next year when I'm in Uni and can forget about their . I'm so sick of it. 
They only seem to want to talk to me when they need help, well I'm sorry. My brains are only for me. I'm so sick of supposedly 'needing' to help them but none of them would help me. I'm over their . 

I just need this year to hurry up and finish, because I'm sick of this and I'm stick of being treated the way I am being treated. 

btw, if I don't update within the next month or so, it's because I'm still really upset about everything or that I'm just super busy! But after Hell week, I will try to update!

_uraqt