Lol long time since I was here =))

Anyway I'll get it straight to the point :3 Most of you have probably knew/noticed my lack of updates for the past idk how long (now that I think of it it's like it's already been a year) and if you're following my personal account in twitter, you must have known about my recent hiatus. It's more of an attempted hiatus really because a couple of days after that i came up with Hey Baby! lol and it was all good and i was very excited about it but suddenly, i don't feel like writing again.

Just the other day, I reread OMG, and I'm very astounded because albeit the grammatical, typo errors and the terribly embarassing romanized koreans, OMG was written so well, like in the sense that the words flowed smoothly and i could feel how much i was so into it back then when i was just writing it. I don't feel that way with my stories anymore.

There were a lot of factors. One of which is that I don't have the time, or the will to do an update. The updating became more of an obligation instead of stress-reliever. I procrastinate a lot. And I really don't want to sound like a when it comes to comments because I know there are people out there who indeed leave lots of love and support for me but sometimes i only receive a few an update and it stops. Makes me thing that my story isn't interesting enough.

And maybe the Feature thing also adds up to the reasons. I used to not care about it but sometimes it makes me wonder that if I can't even make a fic that'll deserve your upvotes, then what am i even doing lol. But i know getting featured isn't all about it. 

I plan to finish at least Hey Baby and well, maybe update a few when inspiration strikes. Although the funny thing is, inspiration strikes but it's kind of an easy come, easy go thing HAHA it comes and i get excited and then suddenly i don't want to do it anymore.

I think I will always be writing. it's something i've always liked to do, heck prompts hit me out of the blue on a daily basis. But maybe not like this anymore. I still want to write about eunhae. But i don't want to keep making fics out of impulse and taking them down because i just suddenly don't want to feel like doing it. It's unfair to you.

It's been a wonderful three years here in aff <3 i met a lot of friends, lots of lovely people, improved a lot when it comes to writing, and i owe it to all of you <3 I wish someday i could gather up the will to write N4 for you (although i originally planned to scrap N4 and make an entirely different story with N4's plot because i don't feel like writing N4 anymore - mainly because of my change of beliefs regarding the fandom but that's another story) I'll think about it if i'll ever put the plot outline of my unfinished stories in case you're interested, but then that would mean i would never really touch them again nn;; 

Anyway, that's it!! I don't want this to be too emotional lol you'll still find me here and in twitter lol, lingering and crying over baby's armpits nyaaaa 

THANKS FOR THE WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE ^^

ps: also pls vote for sj