-slightly sigh- Hurm..it is about yesterday, after I made a payment for my telco bill for 3 month..I call my mom, just because I really miss her, when I reach her, she start to call me with other name, I thought my mother already know that is me, but sadly when she suddly giggle, I realize she thought that I'm one of my relative just because my voice...-totally freak- once she reallize that me, then she just talk and talk but it's different, I mean the feeling..I don't know..how much I feel missing her but then, she just listen me slightly..not even ask about my health..or what I'm doing..it she never miss me? Or just because of my bro still holiday..she never call me..- so frustrated- sometime my evil feeling keep saying..dear, you don't call her, she never miss you or call for you..just stay alone here, do your own work and keep silent..damm that my evil thought, but honestly I really feel jelous with my sis and little brothers bcoz they are always been take care more by our mom..and only me be left independently here..alone!! I hate this feeling..-dont want back to perak-!!