hi, guys! c:

i'm on mobile right now because it's almost midnight, and my mum would kill me if i was still on the conputer (she'll kill me anyways if i'm caught on my phone, too).

i just have something to talk about, maybe a few things.

baekhyun-taeyeon's relationship. *insert emotionless cheering* indeed, i wasn't too fond when i heard, or rather saw, their "scandal" and read about sm's confirmation. sure, you can say i "support" them, but it's just my faith and trust that keeps me a lot more distant now. you all can say that it's not in my place to lose trust, but i can't help it. when i place so much trust and faith into someone or a group of people, i'd rather them straight-up tell me about anything news-worthy and have it hurt then rather than have me find out, in this case, months later without any notice. it's like, did you not trust us enough? are you afraid that we weren't going to sincerely congratulate you because "our oppa" is with another girl? heck, i could care less. i told myself i'd be happy for whoever it was that was in a relationship if they straight out said it, not sneak around and later let their fans find out through a scandal and have the company confirm it. sure, there's the saesang fans to worry about, but...i don't know. because of this, plus the whole "kris leaving" situation...exo isn't doing very well on my bias list right now. they still might be at the top, but there's another group that's already going to claim the first place spot if this news isn't going to die soon. i know i'm the one bringing it up again, but it's been basically a hot topic, and the news is surrounding mainly about how taeyeon and baekhyun are dealing with the situation; all this attention surrounding them is only making them seem worse in my eyes, and trust me, that's not too good. i mean, baekhyun is my bias in exo-k, and taeyeon is my bias is snsd. (note: IS)

other than that, i really want to go to kcon this year. ;~;

vixx is going to be there again, and the last time i saw them at kcon was by live-stream. i really want to see them live this time, but because of financial issues...ㅠㅠ

ah well. i really wish i get to meet them one day. (i've been thinking about auditions, but there's this one voice in my head that's saying, "please, do you really think you can make it as an idol? keep dreaming.")

/sigh/

these internal battles are tough, especially when you degrade yourself a lot. orz

well, it's past midnight. night, everyone!

p.s there are probably grammar/spelling errors, but i'll probably forget to go over this tomorrow, so please excuse them. ^^