Dear blog? Well to be honest, I've known this guy since I was a kid. But we've only been close for quite sometime - when the both of us got out of our own relationship and entered college. The problem is, we are 10 000 miles away from each other. I use to have a crush on him since before my 3 years relationship with his friend and that time he was dating my friend. My ex told me that when me and my ex were in a relationship, 'that' guy kept asking about my relationship with my ex from his girlfriend - I'm still confuse about what that meant. But it happened like 2 years ago. And a year ago, we got close. We skyped almost every night and we constantly text. He makes me laugh and I always caught myself smiling just the thought of him. But that was a long time ago. We lost contact, since the both of us were so busy with our college life and what not. So the thing is, my feelings for him grew when we started getting close. But we're not close anymore. So I don't know. It's been almost 2 years already. And like right now, everytime I want to like someone else, or try being in a relationship, I always find myself waiting. I don't know for who or for what. I am just here waiting. Am I actually waiting for him?? Am I crazy??