I grew up going to a very Christian school. My friends came from very Christian homes, whereas mine... not really. It was always something I could choose for myself. Going to the school I did, the message I was met with when I came with problems was mostly "Let's pray for that" which honestly made me detest Christianity for a while. I hated that the only consolation I could get from adults was "that's God's way" or something the like, when I wasn't consoled in the least by that. However, I have always loved music. I love singing in choirs, I loved singing songs and psalms every morning and just the general feeling of voices coming together. It has always awed me. One of my then-friends copied a CD for me with Rebecca St James, who is a Christian popsinger and I played it a lot. I just refound the CD and it just made me think a lot. I don't think I can ever choose a favourite song, but many of the songs I love is actually very Christion now that I think about it. I love "Here I am to worship" with Hillsong. "Believe" and "Breathe" by Rebecca St James (seriously; I just refound "Believe" and I almost started crying because it's such a beautiful song, which is really odd because it's a song about believing in God and I don't know whether I do. Or... I do, but not in a conventional way). "I will lift my eyes" with Bebo Norman also makes me cry. "Imagine me" with Kirk Franklin. It's just... I don't even know. The music is beautiful and the songs are powerful. I think maybe I just admire that someone can have faith in a power they haven't seen. I sometimes wish I was capable of that. But at the same time, I just... I don't like Christian people (or any religious people, really) who try to force their religion onto others. To me, religion is personal. I think that's where it goes wrong for me. I love being together about for example songs, but the minute people start preaching, telling me what I should or shouldn't do, I just... I hate it. I believe I am a good person and I believe that love should come first in all aspects of life. I believe that being gay or any kind of "odd" ual is completely normal and completely okay. I think that is my biggest problem with religion; the whole judging other people-thing that almost every religion has going on. I believe you can be a good person no matter what religion you have. I also believe you can be a bad person no matter what religion you have. Sometimes I think religion is something great and powerful and somtimes I think it's just an excuse for some people to treat other people badly.. 

- I was just supposed to tell you I'd refound wonderful music and then this happened..... Philosophical me.