When it's time to move on but your heart still don't wanna let go, probably this is the word you're gonna say:

"It's not 'good bye', it's 'see you again'."

I always love the sentence. A sweet sentence that somehow can cut like knife.

I'm not good at writing fanfiction, but being here makes me want to write more and I also love sharing my thought so here it goes.

I just graduated from junior high school this monday. On the farewell party, those who are in the top ten ranks were asked to get on the stage. I was mentioned as the eight (I was very grateful since my score is higher than my enemy's XD).

The night on the same day, a boy who I had (or have) a crush on texted me via line, congratulating me though his score is better than mine. I realized that he just knew my score that day while I knew his score right on the day when the score announced via letter to each student.

One of my biggest fear is that I would leave without telling him I love him, even though I don't know whether I still like him or not. Yeah, we are going to different high schools.

People said,

"You don't wait for a moment to come, but you create the moment."

So, after he asked some things, I created the moment.

I told him not to forget about me bc I knew that though he didn't mean it, he'd say the same. And he did.

Then I replied, "I, myself, will never forget you. How could I forget a person that I like (I just realized I write 'like' instead of 'liked' and I really don't mind). I'm not moving on yet but I wouldn't meet boys anymore (I'm going to girls' school). How could I forget a person who gave a lot of memories."

well of course I didn't write the sentence in the bracket. I mean, I really didn't write it. '-'

Then I said how he had been such a jerkbc he made me feel like a tea bag, he made me fly then dropped me and eventually will throw me after he didn't need me anymore. I also thank him bc he texted me, giving me a chance to confess.

He replied with lot of 'sorry'. Sorry for getting me in a bad mood, for being annoying, for this, for that, for replying shortly after the long words I said, for being speechless.

I got speechless too.

Then he said the word. The sweetest word I'd like to see in an ending of a story.

"See you again next time, hope the best for you."

I didn't know what to say. I always imagine myself saying the 'see you' part. My heart's pounding fast. I wanted to cry but somehow, I can't.

I really wish he meant it when he said it, really wish he wanted to see me again. That night, I can't easily fall asleep. The sentence lingered everytime I closed my eyes and all of sudden, the songs that I used to play bc they told the story about us (my crush and I) were playing inside my head.

I thought he will be nicer after that day, but yesterday, for the first time in forever, he said happy birthday to me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

But it's only "happy birthday. hope you gain succes in your high school". well, it's shorter in Indonesian.

and I was like..................................................................... 'I-wish-you-don't-say-anything'.

Yeah. if only those words, it'd be better if he didn't say a thing. it's only hurting me for God's sake.

Broken-hearted bc I was expecting more since I've been such a nice friend to him, I didn't reply him. Only read. really wish he know how he has been wrong for saying that. I do know why he did that. He didn't want to make me fly again. But, making me happy on my birthday is not a wrong thing. :/

Now I really wish he just said 'good bye' that time.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is not a good story yeah. Maybe it's wrong if I post it here. But it's good to have a story to share here.