And so, this is my second time to post a blog about my depression. 

About BaekYeon, I should say. 

Whenever I stare at my icon and header on my Twitter account, (which were TaengSic) it makes me feel SO sad. 

It makes me want to kill the world and its people... 

I was blind...

yes, I was. 

And I hope not to be anymore...

I shipped them, TaengSic, romantically, which was wrong. 

I wish this is the news that will make me wake up from my delusional dream...

On my Twitter account:

Icon: TaengSic

Header: TaengSic

Location: delulu shipper's mind 

I do think that my Twitter account is full of my ship, TaengSic, which always makes me cry. 

And just recently, when I went to my profile here, (on Asianfanfics.com) I stared at my profile picture which was the latest TaengSic moment and said, "What's the sense of this now?" and then tears from my eyes followed, to be honest...

it's SO hard...

yes, it really is...

I know I should be happy for BaekYeon instead, but...

I still need time...

time to recover... 

If you're already pissed of my dramatic blogs, then okay. Tell all of the hates you can say. It's just, I still hope you understand me... OR you can understand me... fighting and thank you very much...