My Heart is Bleeding

I must admit I am one of those childish, jealous fangirl but what can I do? My heart keeps on bleeding everytime I see Jaejoong posting pictures and videos of his co actor in triangle. I can't even say her name because I hate it. I can't even stand some fans saying they look cute together. No, they don't. Joongie is more prettier and ier than her. I can't accept it. I don't find any reason to like her.

Truth to be told, I can't wait for Triangle to end. Jealousy aside, my objective mind didn't really like that drama. I wish I was wrong but the rating said it all. (PS: I've watch till episode 5, I think.)

I know I sound I ridiculous but I hate this feeling. I decided to unfollow JJ on his twitter and IG for my own sanity. My chest tightens with those onscreen and offscreen photos.

I know a fan should support his/her bias to all his undertakings but this time I can't. My nine years of loving JJ is getting tested this time around.

I really miss my innocent Jaejoong back then with his long black hair, big eyes and honest smile. 

My poor fangirl heart. 

I don't mean no harm, I guess no one understand what the hell I'm feeling. I'm just a fan.

Joongie, give me time. Soon, I'll grow up and be mature. Despite this, I will always be loving and supporting you (just not Triangle, okay?) 

Geez, I cried more for my bias than my recent break up with boyfriend. I guess I always love JJ more than him. Lol.

Yunho, save me. 

I will risk being bash by posting this blog but I can't just go around Tokyo, hating the feeling of being jealous. I hope by posting this it will make me feel less sad. 

Who says being a fangirl is easy? I can't even share to my sister and my friends that I'm heartbroken because my bias, the reason why I choose to work in Korea is posting photos. Even I is ashame to tell them that. I'm the ridiculous. 

My poor fangirl and YJ heart. Hang on. :(

 

Reiko/Ryeku :(

 

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14JKSor3KHJ #1
awwww, *hugs and warm honeyed spice tea* His innocence is gone and I feel SM harassment has a part to play in his rebellious shi-nan-ah-gins. He has to work double hard to keep himself fresh in everyone's mind. So comeback to him. He needs your support. Don't take a public stance like Homin. You don't have to respond but just be there and eventually I'm sure see a glimpse of the real him or as much as he can. Plus, if this months press release is true, we won't see him until 2016..........now that's what should ache. annyeong author-nim
affgaga #2
author-nim.. how r u? i'm following triangle up until ep 21 already.. and i'm still wandering why triangle's rating was under the big man when both were aired on the same time.. big man's story line is so predictable while triangle has many twists n turns (it's like reading a fanfic!).. there's a scene where Jaejoong was in tears while eating the rice and i myself was like choking watching that scene.. after watching all these episodes, this erted mind of mine cant help imagining what if Jang Dong-chul and Jang Dong-woo, unaware of their blood ties, falls in love with each other instead of fighting for Oh Jung-hee.. haha.. and, through-out the drama, u can clearly see his love for the girl does not exists in his eyes! the acting does not work!

p.s. about Jaejoong posting pictures and videos of his co actor in triangle, maybe he's trying hard to make someone specific (u-know who) to be jealous..? :P
sweetpersimmon #3
I feel that too Unnie. :) Don't worry, it's just a drama. It's only acting and they get paid for it.
abad-ini #4
Ohmygod!!! I really know how you feel. I always feel that way when yunho's acting. So, I don't watch his drama because it's really hurt my heart. But it doesn't mean that I don't support him. After he finished filming, I cameback updating all about him again. Hehe so don't worry dear, everything will be alright. Just always support our oppa with whatever we can do :)
jae1011 #5
i'm sorry if i'm being ignorant here but could you or anyone will do, to tell me jaejoong twitter account.. you see I deactivate the old one since I occurred some trouble with it... I tried to search for his acc but to no avail... if you could provide the link it would be much better... tq

p/s: im sorry but I agree with you about triangle. but since jaejae is in it... I kinda force myself to watch it... for me..its enough to see him act...
jj1004 #6
Take it easy baby...
I think what he'd done just for increasing triangle popularity, nothing more.
Just take a look his pict woth shorry and the gird and that ajushi, you can see his head lean to the girl biut his hand and half of his body leaning to shorry..
im sure nothing happen between them :)
Fanykuroi #7
Ok I totally understand you and since im a true heart YJ shipper...seeing him with her just feels wrong. Thanks God I dont have internet constantly pr else I would be just like u. So hang in there cause this will pass ^^
BabyBlueCherry #8
I think we're one of kind, i felt like bagging my head when see the pic Jae with that woman.
Seriously i just can't bring my self to watch it even thought i want to suport JJ. He work so hard for that drama.

Not just to JJ's drama, pic etc i behave like an immature kid but to Yunho's drama, mv, dance move, pic etc too.
The five of them actually.

Childish i know but i can't help it including hating those womans who get too close to our YunJae and YooSuMi.
I want to see Yunjae together again so badly..
Not them with other girls, i hate seing it.
YJ_SkySakura #9
oh dear no wory at all ... at least here is another person tat is soooooo dislike that that .. I also don wan to said her name .. from the beginning wen I know jaejoong costar I like ... anyway I just pray for YUNJAE !!!
kristalesa #10
i can feel you /le cries an ocean/ jaejae please dont do that~ yunnie come and take him away huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa always keep the faith~ yunjae love forever... just want to quote "it's hard being a fangirl" TT^TT
classyopeia #11
omg i feel you Rei chan ;; (btw, do you mind if i call you Rei chan?)
i cant even stand to watch the 2nd ep T.T and ny heart hurts everytime jj posts his pic with that girl (idek her name too) and some ppl are shiping the and i just can't. i mean, i hate to say that i hate jae touches any girl or vice versa. or not only jae, but all dbsk boys. that feeling hasn't change since the first time i know them about 8years ago. i cant grow up to be a more mature fan T.T but what can i do? i hate it, and i cant stop my self to not hate the fact that they're surounded by girls.
that's my ugly side so i rarely say this kind of thing to ppl.
in my life, jaejoong is just for yunho and yunho is jaejoong's. period. i'm delulu, yes. i'm pathetic, whatever. that is my feeling and ppl can't judge me. they are allowed to think differend from me and i wont disturb them so the cant disturb me, too lol
meowmeow98 #12
I know how you feel, authornim~ T.T It really hurts my feelings..... stay strong authornim ~ we will just here, fighting!
faithot5 #13
Stay strong.no worry.do what you feel to do.its about yourself
MynnieYumi #14
Well, you knew JJ likes to post his daily life online. It's just one of those. If he did not post it up, we won't know what happen to him. So, my advice, just ignore it and continue to support him in whatever he did. Well, on the other hand, maybe you can think that he did all that because he wants someone with the JYH initial to notice and get jealous and some 'punishments' later? *wink
MissEztie #15
In my opinion, there are 2 side. The first side is we must support whatever they do. In the second side I fell really jealousy and hate with the actress. In my head I believe that Jaejoong posting that photo and video just for the sake of triangle and Jaejoong just like her as a sister. I'm so sorry cause my YJ heart is not so full and not strongly. I always be remind that the reality is not beautifull as in fantasy. Ah sorry for my babling. But I hope they can reach their happiness and I will always support what they choose. Please keep believe in them :)
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