my complaints // read at your own risk (long)
i have a lot of complaints in life;;
**welcome to my ranting blog. i applaud you if you read all of what i wrote, but i know that you pretty much won't. that's your choice, though.
// so i have this insecurity... i know that i'm still young and all, so i'm still sensitive. i'm at the age of going under 'puberty', so i think that's pretty much the reason for my sensitivity (?). the thing is, sometimes i really don't feel like the people around me love me, you know? the kind of feeling that you just wanna tear up because of that? no? no? okay no. maybe i'm the only one. cx because they don't give you much love and they don't show it; like sometimes they ignore you and i just -- ugh ;A; but FYI i'm still not crying. sooooo let me share you my story for tonight. my aunts came back from their hometown (we live far from each other) to celebrate my grandmother and father's birthday tomorrow. she came tonight, and i felt like she wasn't paying attention to my words (because i liked talking to her; she's my aunt and ofc i miss her too), i mean, she looked elsewhere and didn't reply at all. she talked to my sister but she didn't talk to me, and i just feel like she doesn't like me, aight? she never did that to me b4 though, and lyk my feelings are really stirred up. i ask myself if there's something wrong with me, but i cant find any. i was acting the same as before, so i dont really get it. /scratches my head/
and a different complaint again, i had my first day of being a sophomore in high school today. am i supposed to cheer or something. ;A; my day was bad, actually. i met up with my friends, talked to them and had fun, but in my classroom starts all the disappointment. so, i was assigned to this classroom where there were a LOT - and i mean a WHOLE LOT - of mosquitoes around, and i didnt put on some 'preventing mosquitoe' lotion (idk what you call that tbh), because i never knew we would stay in a classroom with biting insects. AND we were the last ones to go inside the classroom, so now we were left with the 'leftover' seats at the back. me and my friends (2 of them actually) sat there, and mosquitoes from below our chairs suddenly attacked us. miraculously, i only had one bite, so i'm really thankful omf. and my classmates actually, i'm not really close with them so it was awkward cuz they were all getting along well while me and my friends were only at the back; looking around AND looking awkward -.- and worse - my eyes are weak and i was at the freaking BACK. i couldn't see the schedule ._. it's so sadddddddddddd and the weather was gloomy ;A: so basically my first day as a sophie was horrible. but i guess..... i would adjust... T^T
my little brother is a monster tbh. i'm really annoyed sometimes because he is SO bad, like really. he kicks us and rides on our backs (it really hurts because for ONE. he is only three-going-four and TWO. he is 21 kg - FREAKING 21 PPL 21). i love him but he is so bratty. my parents let him off the hook every time and i srsly hate it. he does a lot of things my family hate; but he only keeps laughing. LAUGHING. that's the only thing he does when we get angry at him. so annoying. UGH. he throws us his slippers and he slaps us and yells at us and UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i really hate it. pls pls pls help me find a solution or smt to keep him in place ;A; we are having a lot of trouble with him. he is really annoying. ><
so i'm really sorry that i have many complaints. i'm sure nobody would bother to comment HAHA i'm going to cryy ;A; anyway if you just viewed this, thank you. at least you have a view of my life now. T^T my sensitive feels ;A; i hate it. puberty suuuuuuuuucks 3
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