I know this should be about kpop and stuff but this is my blog so i will post what i am feeling as of right now.

I feel like just crying my heart out. I am extremely scared that I might lose my puppy. He is 15 months old and he means the world to me. I would give half my life to save him. Yes I know he is a dog and some may think stupid of me but I do not care. He was the last gift from my dad before he past away. My puppy, Nynu, has been such a big help in getting my family through my dads passing. To know that I may lose him because he swallowed a stick kills me. Two nights ago he swallowed a piece of fabric from his chew toy. I spent almost 1100$ on x-rays and medication. This morning he swallowed a stick. I tried to get it out but he swallowed it. I don't have money to bring him to a vet and it kills me looking at him because I feel like i'm a killer. This was so unexpected, I had enough money for the first time but before I could put money aside this happens. I feel horrible because he can't speak. I can't understand him and I don't know if he is going through any pain. He is acting the same but my heart hurts so much. The vet has told me to monitor him and if there is any blood or he looks like he is in any discomfort than to bring him right away.

I start crying as soon as I imagine him going through any pain.

I'm feeling so angry. I know I should not blame anyone or anything except for myself. I should have been looking after him carefuly. I'm mad because I lost my dad in a car accident and I don't want to lose Nynu. I'm so scared, i know i should think positively and pray but my heart hurts so much when I look at Nynu. when I look into his eyes I feel like this might be the last time.

[UPDATE]

Well he pooped it out...:D I am so happy :D

My mom woke me up and said that he pooped out the stick and that the stick was longer than we had thought it was. Now we are just going get his blood work done to make sure there wasnt any damage. I am so happy and thank you guys for your prayers. I really appriciate it and I hope you guys have all the success in your future. XD Thank you so much again :)