i'm sick of everybody in my family trying to convince me im a horrible person.
they managed to do that. they got what they wanted? right? now they try and
convince me i'm a . am i ? no. and they criticize me because of my depression
and my social issues. they criticize everything about me, even if nothing is wrong
with a certain part. while they praise the girl who calls herself my sister, who is telling
me i'm a , and that i should be ashamed to be alive and just end my life now.
and they praise the oldest; the one who is in jail for drunk driving, and hitting people.
how many times has he done this? about 15. who got drunk and fell off a roof? him.
who drinks so much that he cant go 24 hours without 3 ing beers? him . not me.
and i - i have never criticized them to the point as they criticize me. i give them 
encouragements. "you'll be fine, just be calm". "you'll do better next time."
i don't get why they turn their backs on me.