Ohai!

It’s a bit surreal, to me. Writing this. But I guess I should just get on with it and stop dragging this out any longer.

Things have been going on in my life. Some of you may have noticed it through the things I have written so far. I know I don’t always write about the most fluffy situations, or leave you with the most happy endings. I happen to be a rather sceptic, cynic, and very realistic person. Life has made me that way, and I think I’m pretty okay with that.

I officially went on hiatus 17^th March, but even before that, there have been times I suddenly stopped activity for a while. Those times you can mainly blame on health issues. Less than two years ago, I found out I have a heart disease. They said it was manageable, if only I kept on taking my meds, did my best to stay healthy, and everything else that followed.

In a way, they were right. It was manageable most of the time, just sometimes, it wasn’t. Some brief attacks happened, though they were never serious enough to be considered dangerous, or life-threatening. Or a better way of phrasing it; I didn’t want to bother anyone with those, so I always tried to keep it to myself.

Later, however, the attacks got worse, and well… how to put this....? They weren’t that innocent anymore? I’ve been admitted to the hospital again, and again, and again.

Other than that physical aspect of my life, there’s other stuff going on, too. I just got back from China, where I have been living for the past months. I had my fair share of health issues there too. It sure was an adventure for someone not fluent in Chinese. In case anyone is wondering; yes, the Chinese health care system and hospital structure is completely different than in Europe, and surely hella more confusing. But other than that, China was great. If you ever have the chance to go, you really should. It’s an amazing country, and I miss it already.

Though when I was on my flight back, I got another attack (we just landed), and I immediately got carried off to the hospital.

By now, my heart disease has reached a stage where it has become incurable. Meds don’t always help, and I have to go for check-ups frequently. I have to spend a lot of time in hospitals, too. Testing is awful.

I think the weirdest part about the whole thing is, for me at least, that I’m still okay with it. They told me my life will be shorter than most people’s, but I’m okay with that. I have seen what aging does to people (young and old), and knowing the chance I will have to go through the same things they have has slimmed down considerably, strangely sets my mind at ease.

Ahh, anyway. I digress. This isn’t really the information you came for. You are wondering about the updates, right?

Updates will soon follow. Either some updates will come in the next couple of days, or the next weeks, but from the moment my first real update has appeared; you can assume I have returned!

I will first finish the story ‘Don’t you remember?’, then I will continue with the story that has received the most votes. During that time, some one-shots can be released as well, so please look forward to those too!

I have lots of new stories burning on the tip of my fingers, but since writing multiple stories at the same time has been my mistake in the first place, I’ll do my best to push them to the back of my head, and keep them for later (maybe).

Please fill in the poll to vote for what story you’d like to see continued once ‘Don’t you remember?’ is finished!

Ahh, I hope I didn’t scare you away with my rambling.

Lots of love,

Ava