Just a stupid Weird Confession

     first of all, i am pissed off right now. So, if I typed unappropriate things then, sorry in advance. I realized that
sometimes I don't get why family is the worst judge [in the world] in my life. I mean, when they pull you down it definitely hurts straight to your heart. And, you don't have any choice but to forgive what they have done because you're a family. And, even if you flip how the world works they'll still be your family. That to be honest, is the most horrible fact. I love them yes, but as an individual. I don't like how they treat me. Like my family has a thousand faces and masks. Different when with me and different when with others. So everytime i'm with them i was just like 'what the ?'. Why am i saying this horrible fact? because, i was deeply hurt and until now, i still don't get it.so i just want to release all this heart breaking stress on my body. tbh, this is the only way i could express what i feel because, if i tell this to my friends, idk how they react so not now. so right now, i am hurt DEEPLY hurt. I can forgive yes, but forget? erase that. 

You guys don't know me anyways so yea...
i am really weird so yea, don't really mind what I utter when I talk with you guys..
but don't judge me having that as a basis. I know I am weird and random.
But don't act really Y towards me.

i can be a JERK.
and a BADASS.
but I actually love plushies huehuehue....
we can be friends.
do you know what?
Love is the sweetest revenge idk.
but I believe in that.
because, I also have feelings even tho I don't actually look like a human.
But I am a human so yea. 
/bows