When I started being a daragon writer that was the time daragon is HOT and I am one of the captures of this hot fandom. I was still a student then and I can't support them financially always so in contribution I write stories about daragon and translates Japanese articles for them. I enjoyed what I was doing then. Then suddenly I felt DRAINED OUT. The feeling where reality sunks in me?

When I migrated to a different country, I thought this fangirling life will be over for me SINCE I will be facing REAL things now. I thought I won't have time to write updates and stories again so I just went on HIATUS. Not telling anybody. Not giving warning to the readers. Nor my OL friends.

And when I finally adjusted to my new home, I try to go back in this fandom and Hail Ho, I WAS SO NERVOUS THEN! Like I really thought if I am still welcome in this fandom. I am not really head-over heels over kpop nor kdramas that we can talk over our common interests but I especially like my OTP and they're my only source of inspiration to write. I am the english novels, mangas, Walking Dead/Game of Thrones, Western movies, books, and music lover kind of person. And Sandara Park is the only big reason why I'm still in KPOP ;) I check her in Oh Dara websites oftentimes so I have sneak peeks of what's happening to kpop too ;)

Then my passion for writing came back. I want to write again BUT I was nervous again. I was like, are there still daragon readers out there? Or they waned and lose hope on this couple already? Do I still have readers? Then who am I writing for then?

Then I checked AFF and was really surprise to find many daragon stories and new daragon writers in this fandom already. SO MANY! I feel so old. 

Then I try to update a chapter, got comments and encouragements, foreign new subscribers, and before I knew it, I enjoy what am I doing again. I think that's the most important part. To enjoy what you're doing.

And I think I mature enough this time to handle strains in my life so when I finally update again, I feel contented and found my self applying my tons of reading experience of different kinds of books these past times I'm not into daragon. I feel like I just discovered daragon again and what to drown my self in these new writers in this fandom once again ;)

I welcome my new readers too and hug back my old readers, and had it not been for your encouragements I really won't have the confidence to go back on this fandom. SO THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I am not important in this writing fandom but I am still grateful that through daragon writings, it opens new experiences and rekindled new passion to me. I am bringing my writing to a different level this time, and I am determined to see my work in a hard-bound novel, my dream is really to see such one even if it is not best-selling lol and I'm also happy to finally open up to my real friends and families in real life about this dream of mine. They now know I write and already sent encouragements to me, and it truly boosts your self-sonfidence. Though they still didn't know I write fanfics online (and some are green I'm totally embarrased if they find out lol). My readers online are the only one who knows I write. No one in real life.lol. and I don't know why I prefer such way. 

SO THANK YOU AGAIN!

forever grateful,

SIV

p.s: btw I hide some stories that I think I cannot update and focus and it'll be unfair for the readers of those fics if I'm not planning to update them fast. I'm sorry for that.