Dear Joonmyeon,

I am not particularly related to you, hell no. I am not Korean, I am not living in Korean. I used to hate K-Pop before I saw you. K-Pop, blah, eewww, that's what I thought before.

Then I saw you there, in Mama. I didn't know what you had that the moment I saw you there I knew you were my bias. Then Growl, then History, then Wolf, then EXO Showtime, then countless videos having you inside them. Gosh! I am torn between wanting to pinch your cheek and hug you whenever I see you. You always try to look cool, but sadly you are clearly bullied by the members. I sometimes wonder how it is really behind the camera, are you really okay with the boys?

I am just a fan. That's it, period. I am one of those who love you will all their heart, supporter of your life, whose dream is to meet you someday and finally touch you. Puhlease, I am not ert. What I meant by touch is simply shaking hands, couple of hugs, that's it.

I know this is a really hard time for you and the gang. Especially for you, I can understand how it is almost unbearable to have the pain of being left, ignored by the other leader (heck, before you attack me, please, I am comforting Joonmyeon here. Hate me all you want, whatever!). It must be really painful to see him leave. I don't side him, but if it is really his choice, you have to let him go. All you need to do is to focus, focus, and focus. The concert will due tomorrow. I believe you have mastered the technicalities. It is your heart that you have to keep sane. You have millions of lover here. If you feel down, remember us, let our energy feel your heart. I hope our love will be sent to you and heal you, like how you heal us when we are down with your cute, angelic smile and voice. You have us, don't worry, don't panic. Breathe, calm down, nail the world!

Dear Joonmyeon,

You may never see this. I know, you need to learn more English. Heck, I don't underestimate you. You are clever, you will master English in no time.

What I mean is, this is how I can say happy birthday to you. I cannot bring cake to your dorm and say "surprise" to you. I cannot give you a gift directly under your eyes. We are distanced by too many miles. However, I just want to wish you happiness. I hope you are always doing fine, no sickness or illness. I hope you are getting more mature, more responsible, and happier in your life. Keep chasing your dream. Me here is doing the same thing. You are my inspiration. I am happy to know such person like you.

SAENGIL CHUKKA HAMNIDA.

SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OORI JOONMYEON.

SAENGIL CHUKKA HAMNIDA.

Schandelierre

PS: Am I allowed to cry now? T_T