So I just thought about making a blog in here. About my feelings lol. I just want to pull everything out lol

That feeling that I just want to kill my crush XD

He is the reason why I waste my day and night just thinking about him. Now I feel like my life is so wrong, but it is my fault too because it was my choice to like him too much it is giving me eyebags! XD

He was like a brother figure to me ... :(

HE JUST SISTERZONED ME.

Seriously, I was there when he needed me. Lol.

HE WAS MY FIRST...date.

At least I CALL THAT A DATE.

Since we were the only costumers.

<3

I swear he was so HOT!

The way he was eating... OTL

okay, maybe it wasn't a date but it was a date for me

but for him, it was probably just...just a dine out with his little sister :(

I like him... the way he wipes my sweat away.

The way he said I can draw really good.

The way he sang "Somewhere Down The Road" on phone

and promised to sing it in personal but never happened

The way he calls me 'baby girl'

the way he says 'i miss you...'

the way he pretends to worry. lol

Everytime he needs something, like a calculator so he could take his exam,

I was always there panicking and looking for a calculator JUST FOR HIM! BECAUSE HE ASKED FOR IT!

he doesn't even know I dont have one.

I just borrowed to anyone because I ... he's important to me...

Sometimes, I feel like I fell from his trap.

I always believed in him.

Like he was a big brother to me.

I always looked up to him because he said he wants to be a doctor someday

I always watched him

I always go crazy everytime he taps my head lol

and When I needed him, he's not theeeeeeeere.

but when he needed me, I always find a way!!!

I just want to go wild . I just want to punch his face. and kick his nut!

we stop talking for a week then he just randomly text me or call me like nothing ever happened.

he get my hopes up and lead me on. BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT NO MATTER HOW LONG HE IGNORES ME... I will always be here waiting for him :(

OPPA, just stop calling me BABY GIRL 3

STOP SAYING YOU MISS ME .

STOP SAYING YOU'RE GOING TO FIND ME.

STOP IT. STOP GETTING MY HOPES UP

It's only breaking my heart. orz

Seriously...

we dont have the same religion :(

They say I shouldnt be too close and fall in love with him

but i cant help myself.

so I ended up making a story about "What Hurts The Most" 3

I want to bury him alive. OTL.

HELP ME.

Okay so  I actually met a new guy, but... I cant take him off of my mind, oppppaa! Oppa is just too different

He might be a playboy like what they say, but he is like everything... 

I hope I'm wrong.

How to move on...