Little by little I'm slowly rebuilding my crumbling bridge.
The heavy stones that have already fallen in the water stare back at me making flashbacks go through my head.
I shake it off. 
Those stones are deep in the water and are no longer part of the bridge that once stood in front me

The bridge I had been walking upon until it suddenly collapsed
It seemed so sturdy before, sure I noticed the wires jiggle a bit here and there and felt the bridge move a bit under my feet as I walked at times
But it never gave me signs of it totally collapsing the way it did.

The stones fell one by one, I can still see them falling in front of me as if it's still happening
As the stones fall into the water I can feel the splashes of water hit my face
It's so cold, my skin freezes at the slightest drop that touches my face. 
I shut my eyes, I can't be distracted by the flashbacks

Taking a deep breath I find some rocks that lay around me
As if someone had just dumped them where I stood on my crumbling bridge
I pick up a pebble, it's so small but that's all I can carry for my body is took weak from seeing the disaster that had occured before me
My legs shake as I pick up the pebble and walk towards where the bridge stopped
I stand before the gap and stare down at the water where all the fallen rocks lay, each with a memory both beautiful and painful, most of them being painful
Very...very painful

I swallow the spit that had accumilated in my throat from all the fear I had
Looking down at the rock making my heart beat faster by the minute and legs shake like crazy
I wrap the pebble I held in my hand inside my fist, feeling as though it's just going to fly out of my grasp.
I close my eyes and try to think what to do with the pebble that's in my hand. 
Nothing comes to mind....

Days pass and I end up still at the edge of my bridge, hugging my knees as I stare blankly into the water
How is that it's so beautiful but all it does is brings tears of sorrow to my eyes?
The rocks just sit there in the water staring at me...
What am I doing sitting at the edge of this bridge?
Why am I still holding onto this pebble?
Should I just through it in the water?
I don't know what to do

Finally during the night I notice the water that flowed under my feet and bridge start to get angry
The water splashed everywhere, hitting against the rocks and going over my bridge soaking me
I scream but no one hears
I hold my head staying in my spot, I'm scared...
I feel my heart beat faster and faster by the minute feeling as though it's just going to break out of my chest
The water starts to get more violent
I don't know what to do so I just sit there staying scared. 
In my head all I hear are echoes that reverberate throughout my mind
It's a voice. Is it mine? Is it someone else? 
I listen trying to make out the voice, as I listen I feel as though it is my voice, but not me. 
This makes me gain more fear.
The voice starts screaming in my head 

"Just jump! Jump off already! No one is going to miss you or care. Just jump already, you need to jump. JUMP NOW!" 
It keeps repeating over and over again giving me reasons why I should jump, I beging to feel my body sucumb to the thoughts
Tears fall out of my eyes as I hear the thoughts echoe through my head and I actually listen to what it's saying
"Should I jump? Probably..." My body weakens and I feel it preparing itself for the jump. 
The water stays crazy for a few days and the echoes just get louder and louder. 
Tears still fall but my face is emotionless 
"I'll do it...just stop being so loud in my head..." 

I get up and move a foot forward, about to jump off but I realized there was somewhere I could go to calm down. 
A tree.
Someone had told me about this tree for a while and I never went to it, I always walked passed it whenever I walked upon my bridge.
The person told me that I can tell this tree all my thoughts and the tree will extend it's branch of knowledge and it will try it's best to help me.
I felt so scared to jump so I went to the tree. 
It was only a few steps away from where I stood. 
There I stood in front of the tree that stood still on my bridge

"I'm scared.." I told it with my lip quivering
"What are you scared of?" It asked me
I stood there silent not sure if I made the right choice, when all of the sudden the voices started to echoe so much louder
I finally answered
"I'm scared of myself..."
"Why is that?"
I stayed silent again and started to play with my fingers. 
"I'm scared I'm going to jump into the water, and I want to...but I also don't want to...I don't know I'm just so scared right now"
I looked down at my feet having the tears fall upon them, 
I heard the bark on the tree move, leaves flowing and branches fidgeting around.
"Do you feel like you're going to jump now? Or very soon?"
"I don't know...I honestly feel like it may not be now or tomorrow, but I don't know if it'll be next week, or next month. But I fear I may actually do it"
"I see...." The leaves and branches moved around once more. "Well why have you been feeling this way?"
I began to break out crying as I fell to my knees hugging myself in pain. 
I just broke

I cried and cried telling the tree about my once sturdy bridge collapsing so sudddenly, 
Later having more pieces of it just fall apart more, each rock just falling into the water that brought me more sorrow whenever I looked into it.
The tree stayed quiet listening to my problems, having a few inputs but it just stayed still letting me cry about my bridge.
I finally finished telling it about my bridge and it stays silent and I stay silent
I feel numb but a small bit of relief goes through me yet...I can still hear the echoes. 

The tree sighs and gives me it's input. It was very comforting to hear it all because it didn't make me feel like I was being stupid or going insane
I stayed at the foot of the tree for hours just talking
It actually made me laugh too and I made it's leave brush against each other making it laugh as well. 
After a while I breath in deeply and I stand up slowly 
"I think I'm better now" I smile
"Are you sure? I don't want you leaving here if you're going to jump in the water in the end"
"Yeah I'm fine." I chuckle
"Really? You can tell me the truth, you don't have to lie."
"I'm sure, I'm positive I'm fine now. I feel a lot better now, and the echoes stopped now. I feel at peace for once" I smiled
"That's good then. Go on then, remember if you need anything I'm here" 
"Thanks. I really needed this I appreciate it. Bye bye now, see you next time" I wave to it and walk back to my spot. 

The water is calm now, it's just streaming under the broken bridge. 
I look in my hand and realize I still had the pebble inside it. 
"Guess I held onto it the entire time..." I look at the crumbling bridge then back at the pile of rocks that laid on my bridge.
I move up to where the bridge had stopped and crouch down to analyze it. 
"I wonder if..." I carefully and nervously place the pebble that I had in my hand on the bridge
Once I placed it down it had immidiatly fused with my bridge
"Huh" I chuckled and smirked. 
I sat down again at the end of my bridge and had enough confidence to actually dangle my feet over the water.
Days went by and I felt a bit better so I decided to get up and pick up a bigger rock than the pebble I had
The one I picked up was only about the size of the palm of my hand, just barely touching where my fingers start
I walked back to my spot and placed the rock somewhere on the bridge like I had with my pebble and it did the same thing
It made me smile

I sat back down and even took off my shoes to feel the water, the very water that brough my sorrow whenever I looked at it, stream through my feet
I was starting to feel a little bit better again, but then one day that water really splashed back in my face making me sad once again 
I felt sorrow once again and brought my feet back up and hugged my legs laying my head on top of my knees
When I looked to the side I saw a small bit of my bridge fall to the water and I let out a sigh
"Of course..." I hid my face behind my knees and began to cry "I should jump in the water already"
As soon as I thought that I heard a voice yell my name 
I looked up and saw a person on a boat near my bridge 
It was one of my friends

"You can do it! It's fine, just hang in there" She smiled brightly. 
Tears of joy began to fill my eyes. 
"Thank you" I smiled back
"No problem. I'm here for you" she smiled back and for once I felt happiness that I hadn't felt in a while
I picked up another rock a bit bigger than the last and placed it on the bridge and went back looking at the water.

There were a few days here and there where either water would splash back in my face, or the rocks in the water would taunt me
Or maybe even when that voice echoes in my head and I'd just get even more scared than before. 
But right when I felt like all was lost, I'd look and see that the boat that had my one friend, had yet another friend and another even ones I never thought would be on that boat for me.
When they saw me fall or cry out and get splashed they'd just yell out my name and encourage me
"Don't worry we're here for you!"
"Yeah just keep your head high so the water won't feel as bad!"
"Just please don't jump in the water, we'll miss you if you do..."
These words would help be stay on my bridge and slowly take a rock from the pile and place it on my bridge. 

Some days I'll just sit there and think of all the rocks that fell and can't help but miss them
Some days I'll look at them laying underneath my feet in the water and get feel melancholic
But I look at the new rocks that I had placed and feel a little better
Some days I'll sit there and do nothing
But some days I'll walk over towards where the boat laid and just talk with my friends on the boat, laughing and feeling happiness again
And whenever I got really sad and just out of shape I'd look over at the boat to see a new face standing there cheering me on. 

I feel as though my bridge is at least about an inch or two longer now, it's taking time but I'm slowly rebuilding it
With the help of my friends and the tree I'm rebuilding it
Piece by piece
Pebble by pebble
And whenever water splashes at me I try to keep going
Whenever the voice echoes I look over to the boat or walk back to the tree
Just know I'm trying.

A friend on the boat once came forward and asked
"How are you doing today?" I smiled and responded 
"I'm doing alright. Hanging in there you know" 
They asked again
"Just alright?"
I looked over towards their direction and smiled brightly 

"Just trying keep breathing"