So im a 1st year college student. 

I never had thoughts of meeting anyone in college. I never had the idea of meeting anyone anymore after college but some how the universe seems to be playing with me. 

I had a boyfriend during christmas, he had a girlfriend at the same time. During the new year my relationship ended. But I had a close friend, a friend i thought i could count on for anything, and he had his girlfriend still. 

This friend of mine became the second male lead in my story. Until he confessed. 

Before I just thought it was a coincidence that i met him when walking to class together but i never thought anything of it. when we had extra credit for our class, i had thought we would go, spend the day together at the event and then separate ways. However fate had other plans that day for us. instead of separating ways, we went to a beautiful scenary, we ate lunch together, and then spent time in a cafe much like a korean drama theme. we talked about our pasts, ex girlfriends, ex boyfriends, our philosophical theories, our favorite tv shows, music videos, everything. He had told me things that he thought he would never tell his family let alone a stranger. To my surprise i told him things i never thought i would tell my family let alone the person in front of me at the time. afterwards, we went to another place and it was even more beautiful. much like a fairy tale. maybe because of the lighting and the night time that set things off. we walked along the water, we ran along the water, and we danced along the water. we played cards by the fountain and then we went to the city of lights. we sat and gazed at the eventful place and played more cards, asked more questions and that was the point that i felt like i knew this person since i was born. our final destination was another cafe and that was where we shared our thoughts of the day. I never knew i be with a person like this. never knew two people can coincidently be together, spend a day together. 

when the clock nearly striked 12, we were tired, exhausted from a long day. and he drove me home. 

the next day, i waited, and waited for a phone call, or text message but it never came. we saw each other in class and spoke a few words and then we he left. 

i waited two weeks to hear from him and nothing. until i was fed up and messaged him first. 

he mustve been surprised but that week was my favorite. we messaged each other, talked to each other at night until we both fell asleep. when it came to class, it was still the usual few words. and then "ill see you around." i nearly lost hope until he started walking with me after class, and we hung out. we ate ice cream, and then i tested our relationship. 

we went clubbing and that was where an incident i had wished never happened. 

I loved that night. and I hated it as well. 

that night, he found out i liked him. i was confused, scared, frustrated with his response towards it. but that night, out of manners, courtesy, or something to not break my fragile heart, he held my hand, he held me in his arms, and it seemed we were a couple. I was happy. content as i was the first time we met. 

that time, when we departed, i kissed him on the cheek to thank him and the last thing i saw was a smile and laughter on his face. 

i waited the whole night, the next day, to hear from him and nothing. I messaged him, called him twice from my drunkenness and he never answered nor replied. i was heartbroken. the remaining weekend broke my heart. 

the universe was playing with me because i saw him everywhere. everything reminded me of him no matter how much i tried to rid the thoughts of him. when we came back to class, i had a million of questions to ask him and it was killing me inside to comfirm his feelings but when he told me he went home the next day after the event, i was somewhat relieved? understanding? his family was having a hard time so it subsided. I only had two days to see him a week and i was going to gust up the courage to talk to him about everything however it failed. we acted like that night was nothing but a simple night. 

I want to give up this cinderella dream now. 

Im just having a teenager crush that needs to end. right?