Hey guys its me... ugh so i posted chapter 5 but my friend might edit for me... havent wrote chapter 6 yet and dont know yet when i will this week ive been busy and tired and drained this week and weekend...xiu is dealing with stuff and im trying so hard to help.... can you guys help me to help me to say to xiu... xiu is dealing with school and family problems and xiu thinks that xiu shouldnt live if xiu is a problem for everyone.. xiu is going to that dark place again... xiu scared me soo much saturday by thinking having a drink will make xiu happy but xiu could of thought that drinking would help every time well it doesnt... i was very concerned... im seeing xiu tonight.... but for the rest of this to help xiu can u help me.. give me strength and ideas... and xiu will see this because xiu reads this story and i will leave a message here to my xiu...

Xiu.....

No matter how upbeat we try to be, we all have had a dark place or two to overcome in our lives. Some have problems so big that it may be beyond comprehension to others as to how they will ever be able to handle it. But no matter what size problem or circumstance you are dealing with, it's big because it's yours. It's kind of like the old saying that no surgery is minor surgery if it is your surgery! No problem is a small problem if it is your problem.

"What I'm talking about here is a condition of life problem; one that will affect our mood, our self-esteem and even our success in life if we don't do something to change it. If you find yourself in a state of depression or just really unhappy about the course your life seems to be headed, then I would say you are in a "dark place." You may be dealing with a financial struggle or a serious health issue, mental or physical. You may find yourself separated from those you care about emotionally or physically. Or find you don't believe you even have a loved one to be separated from. Whatever the circumstances that define your dark place, you can find the "light" you need; although it won't necessarily be easy. I believe that together, you and I can find your path out of the proverbial darkness. Life doesn't have to be the way it is forever, we just have to understand why we are where we are and what it takes to change our circumstances." by David Bush.

Recognize that many people rose to greatness after first going through a dark place of their own. Many people have overcome terrible ordeals to find success in their lives. For many it's what made them what they became.

Even if our current circumstance is totally our fault, there is no need to beat ourselves up about it, what's done is done. Don't focus on past mistakes, identify what you did wrong, learn from it so you will know what to do differently next time and move on. Next, educate yourself on the best way to handle the situation. Please remember; only take advice from someone with the proven results you want.

 Give yourself time to think and find your feet in the present. Try not to dwell on what has happened, there is nothing that can be done for the past. Nice and slow worked for me, discover what your strengths are and use them to move forward when ready to do so. It is not the end of the world and better times will come to you. Time, patience and kindness to yourself.

you are an amazing person and everybody wants you here... some people may act like they dont but they do, they just act on impuse when they are going through stress too, im sure your parents are going through stress too because of your brother, but that happens in alot of family's, they say things and dont think about it, they truely love you, i had all those things happen to me before i met you, and now i think those were the easiest things of stress, i felt like u, but you have to face life and punch it in the face and tell it whose boss , that you will not take it but think positively, you are listening to nightcore and dark music that is why ur feeling like nothing is by what u listen to, all you have to do is listen to positive songs and kpop like me, for me with everything going on around me its been stressful and right now is the start to the most stressful part of life i will have, but i think about positive stuff, forget about the bad things, listen to positive stuff, starting dancing, and acting crazy and i just forget those hard stuff,, i want to go back to the time you are at . i realized it was better than now for me and when im grown up cuz thats the hard part but you will have people around u that truely care for u, you have angels in your life, im one of them, but im the first one you met but theres more waiting for u, and think of your favorite stuff, the things u love, fun events coming up like seeing a kpop concert and what happens one day u can meet shinee or exo and having a husband and children and having grandchildren, it will be amazing to grow up and expierence everything... we can live old and our kids can be best friends like us...you can never reach what you are meant to accomplish without going over a bumpy road first..... love you xiu

love, your luhan

here xiu..

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