you know, there are some of us (re: the authors) who are extremely sensitive and madly creative (?) until ideas are such normal things to be created easily on their head. Source? everything, even for the simplest joke, the simplest word and the simplest thing can be the source of unexpected idea. The more unexpected, the more amazing. sigh, I don't know what to say this. I can see this as blessing, but it can be totally..... annoying. You are really in urge to write everything in your head from beginning to the end because it has been created clearly on your head. On the other hand, time and condition aren't supporting you to do it. Well, it's annoying right?

I always feel it and I really want to cry like a fool for this thing. I feel so ing genius smart but at the same time because I can't do it. At the end, all of ideas that I've created become useless. They're still waiting for me to realize it and I feel I can't give them to other due to.... I have a feeling that they'll be ended strangely in other's hand or too difficult for others. 

Seriously, this is the first time I realize my soul and my mind don't work together =_= ACK IT SOUNDS SO ALIEN 

Being productive is okay, but if 'being productive' is only 'secondary thing' in your life (because there are primary things that are more useless important to take your time) ..... it's getting annoying.

this is bbvc and I officially close my ranting session for today. goodbam and keep sane stay happy, guys.