Today I had hiphop training and at one part of the routine, we have to drop onto our knees really hard.  Usually, it hurts heaps anyway because I have really boney knees, so I tried making my hands go down first.  

I must have applied WAY TOO MUCH pressure on it as I felt a sharp stabbing pain around my wrist and suddenly screamed.  At first I had no idea what to clutch onto because both my knee and my wrist were in so much pain (T^T) Until I realised my wrist was a hell of a lot worse.

Then everyone started coming over wondering whether I was alright or not.  It hurt so much I couldn't respond so people kept crowding and questioning me until I panicked and started crying (I'm actually a little claustrophobic and I can't stand it when people ask me if I'm okay).  

The bad thing is, when I cry, I can't stop and it made everyone think I broke my wrist.  I tried so hard not to make a big deal out of it because honestly it's not, but because everyone was trying to comfort me all at once, I can't help but break down.  I'm always causing so much trouble for everyone around me and everytime something like this happens, I tend to think too much and all my stress and worry ends up coming out.

 << ME

I went to the doctors to get it checked up anyway, even though I was so sure it was just a sprain. Now it's all weak and banaged (It was too tight and I was loosing blood circulation in my fingers, but it's fine now)

*inhales and exhales deeply*
I just wish I could tell them that I'm fine and that I wasn't doing it for attention. I only started crying because I can't deal with people pressuring me.  I couldn't say anything because when I cry, I can't talk properly (It's like I'm hyperventilating...)
 

This is such a sad post, let's end it with a FATified Shin Dongwoo & Princess Squirrel Baro

By the way, if you're reading my current fic, there will be a double update today.  Don't tell the others, I want it to be a surprise >.<