Hi guys ... I know I have been missing for god knows how long now .. u probably didn't even notice me missing in the first place but oh well :) maybe one of u did ... anyway . Yes I'm getting married .. my wedding is on the 18th of April .. that's 18 days from now .. I think I'm having a heart attack every time I think about it ....

I'm NOT having cold feet I'm just worried about our first night together that's all :) ... but I'm happy ... I guess that's what really matters right ?! ..

I mean who knew I would actually fall in love w this guy ?! .. hhhhh I mean for God's sake I didn't even want to marry him cuz I was head over heals in love w someone else but then my father that forced me to marry him .. to be honest my dad did nothing good nor right in his life except forcing me to marry this guy .. cuz he really is a walking angel .. a real pure angel .. the kind of person that I needed in my life .. the one who will protect me . Defend me and love and cherish me for the rest of his life ...

I know god heard my prayers cuz this man is all I have ever wanted in life .. I always had everything .. the money the friends the big house the jewelry the private schools the all around the world traveling .. but I never had that one love .. that one man who would hold me so tight it goes all the way into my heart .. I did fall in love before yeah .. but never like this .. I feel safe and protected .. physically and emotionally ...

Just wanted to let u guys know that maybe I won't come back here .. I mean I do come to say hi cuz I did meet some great friends here .. Sogand don't ever think that I have forgotten about u .. I never did and I never will and I'm still waiting for u to visit me here in Qatar .. I really wanna meet u .. 

So :) I guess I'm a big girl now .. kkkk omg I'm really getting married in 18 days lol can't wait