[Side Note: Well, feel free to exit because it's just a rant, my rant. So don't you dare read ths and judge me.]

Well, how to start this? I don't even know why the heck I am doing this but I guess, I just need to take this out of my chest since I have no one to listen to all of this crap since High School has ended and though I keep in touch with my friends, I just think no one would understand. Though I'm posting this now and even if someone sees this or even read this, I think no one would even understand.So long story short, this is a pointless rant or blog or post or whatever you would want to call it. So might as well exit now if this is getting a bit (or a lot) boring.

Anyway, here I go, I grew up in a family where fairy tales can become a reality. I mean, my parents are very muc in love and though they faced a lot, I say this with emphasis A LOT, they still managed to go through all odds. That's why at a young age, I thought I could get a fairy tale and a perfect love story of my own but bo, was I wrong. I never had a relationship nor did I dated someone... right? Yes it does. It an awful lot. I mean, at our age, who doesn't have a boyfriend?! I'm not trying to be judgemental or anything but even my boyish friend have one! I spent most of my nights, thinking to myself how it to be me. I mean, yes, I ALMOST have everything. A perfect life as to what my friends pointed it out: Cool family (Cool as long as I don't do anything stupid), Such nice and warm circle of friends, I have the gadgets, I don't go short when in comes to money just because if I needed some, I could just call my parents or go to my relatives to ask for some. But it's not. It's not near to perfection because I freakin' don't have a love lofe od my own. I wouldn't have been this emotional and freaky about it if I don't fall in love easily but the thing is, I do. It's just that I was just too freaking easy to fall in love with someone! The thing is, everytime I fall, they just let me break. I mean, I hate Proms, because the last two proms left me with such painful memories. I mean, how often do you get to see your crush standing right there, in front of your eyes, dancing with somene else. It did not happen once because it just happened that every time he dance wit someone, the crowd would lessen and you'll see HIM dancing with agirl RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES. What's more depressing is, the guy you've been waiting for more than 2 years, danced a your classmate, BESIDE you. I told you, it being me! 

I almost gave up the word 'LOVE'. I hated every love song that I used to drool over and daydream whenever I hear them. I hated every love story on T.V. and hope that it will end as miserable as I was. I hated anything related to love but I never told anyone. It went for a month but suddenly my prayers got answered, not that I had a boyfriend but my prayers are answered with the word 'WAIT'. I still get impatient most of the times because the guy is just a block away and I still see him and it freaking bother me because all the sign says: "Yes it's him, BUT wait!". So yeah, like tonight, I still think my life when I have this mood swings (I'm a girl, deal with it)

That ends my rant. If you finished it, I already told you, it makes no sense. I just want to take it out somewhere. Yes, I feel better now.