Hello everyone,

I'm writing few lines to tell you that I just kinda got my next month messed up, I'll probably feel like dying the whole time (just like today) and I'll probably cry a lot and miss you all like crazy.

Fact is my teacher...insert insult here... my mentor, the one that let me pending for months and months, just this morning decided (and of course she had to do it right before my lunch so that I could easily feel nauseous) that I'm gonna graduate in April...can you see it? April, next month, mostly half thesis still to do, and basically 15 days useful to do it, before going through the drama of the layout, the final touches, the corrections, the printing...the enormous amount of money for printing, and then taxes, and finally the doom's day where i'll be standing, like a dead body on crack, right in front of the commission, blabbering for only 15 minutes about my "work" convincing them I'm not dying inside and that I haven't spent the last 6 months trying to figure out if I had some serious illness.

You saw me, I wasn't feeling good. She knows...yet she said we should try. I was too petrified to say no right away, and, as she told me to , I submitted my graduation submission (waddafak?) 

That said I guess I won't have time for I'm not your cat...oh god this breaks my heart in million pieces...BUT i'll struggle to at least finish the chapter I have started...the next...even if probably posting it anytime soon is a bad idea if i'll have to wait weeks to write again.

Really guys this unnie is scared, scared like you can't even imagine, but I hope i'll make through this next month, I hope it with all my might, because I want to be free, free to draw free to write even every ing day, free to feel free and lighter after months.

Please stay with me, be patient, I'll get back to you when I can, I'm not even sure I won't find some moments to write more than a  chapter until the end of april...I just can't promise you i will, and I couldn't let you wait without saying this. I'll be somehow around here...I'll read your messages and comments...I just won't be able to write, because a chapter takes me at least one full day and more...and I won't have full days...I can't afford to.

I love you, thanks a lot for reading this...if you read it all you'll have a special place in my heart ok? And I'll maybe even grant you a wish in matter of fics in future...who knows a free crazy author can mean a bunch of crazy crazy fics :)

뽀뽀!

argh my eyes...take it down take it down.... bah whatever I'm ugly but I love you ~♥