i thought that everything's settled. i've tried my hardest to recover myself from everything that had hurt me. even my family had turned their back from me, or i thought so. so how was i supposed to overcome them? they don't even understand me, i'm the type that rebelled so much, and i talk back. but that's just because i want to protect myself. growing up into a girl with a very visible flaw made me overprotective of myself. i said that i want to be alone, what breaks me was that they said go leave in another house then. *sobs* i just want a very warm hug. i thought that they would comfort me. but instead i got to be scolded right in my face. my heart broken into pieces when they said that, my mouth was fouled with curses. no matter how much i obeyed my religion, that won't worth it. i cried myself alone in the bathroom and keeping everything to myself just because i don't want to trouble them. but it looks like i'm getting drifted apart from them.